u/Important-Nobody-700

I've been getting so self conscious and stressed about them checking my undies and like scold at me if they are messy or not clean. It made me so stressed out and worried about it all the time, and they do it so randomly even in front of my brother which made me even more anxious. And they say that's to make sure I keep them clean all the time and keep me on the edge.

Like I get that it's important to keep them clean for girls, but they are still private things and I feel like that's not something that needs to be checked all the times and get embarrassed and shamed for...

I got so anxious, so I started washing them when I shower so when I put them out for laundry and all, they are clean all the times. But, they caught me doing it, and they got super mad saying that I'm trying to trick them and turning to a liar, and I'm trying to hide something....

Now they are making me show putting them into the downstairs hampers before I take shower and get checked or like call my brother in if they can't come. And like this is making me even more stressed out and makes me not want to shower, but I get worried that if I skip shower then it'll be worse and I'll get in to a bigger trouble the next day, so I get more anxious....

I don't get why there are so many rules for me to follow even down to like those little things and private things, and I am the only one that has to be perfect and follow them all perfectly because I'm the girl and the daughter. I feel like it's never enough, and I always do something wrong. I feel so embarrassed when they see there and I can't get them perfect no matter how I try and I think being more self conscious about there all the time makes it worse. I don't get why I have to be like prestine, perfect, pure, and like well behaved and disciplined and all all the times. It's too much.