I sometimes wonder if I'm the only one who's experienced extreme violence from homophobic/predatory women
I'm thinking about my life and all the toxic shit I've been through. I have been sexually assaulted by a woman before as a teenager.
I'm currently 29 but experienced a pretty dark time from a closeted women. Now that I'm completely out of the mess I realized this person was extremely off. I mean really off. She was scary observant...even to the point that my friends called it obsessive.
This person has spied on me naked, watches me so intensely they knew everything about me. Knew exactly what my ex wife looked like that she met once. Has photos of me (she doesn't know I saw she screen shoted things...or explodes on me if I ask if she has photos of me from events making it a dead give away). Knew when I had time off and actively avoided her. Etc etc.
What creeps me out is we did have sexual moments when I was just too confused to understand. Would tell me things were platonic when they weren't and looking back I could tell she was getting sexual gratification. She did this too during my lowest when I wasn't paying attention because I was so upset about my breakup. Would explode on me if I talked to other women. Every single time I separated myself, she would sexually try to woo me back in. This has been going on for years until I realized what this was.
For such a long time I was confused but now that I have clarity I'm actually pretty scared. I don't know if anyone has gone through this. I did confront her and of course she denied everything. The last girl who resisted her (and we are now friends), she tried everything to destroy her reputation. Apparently she used to hop into bed with her when she was masturbating and made it very awkward for my friend.
Is this person a potential rapist? I don't get it but it's weird.