u/ImportantLifeguard25

Please talk to me. It’s here I found the proof. Please. I need to talk to you. I need you here. I need to show you something. I have to show you something. I have the proof you have been asking for!!!! Please please please!!! Real concrete proof!!!!!

I don’t understand shit or any of the games. I’m getting so close to disappearing and not talking to a single soul ever again. I don’t know why there can’t be a conversation and why you have to be so dramatic with the constant up and down. You are draining me to a point I won’t come back from rather than growing a pair and facing me like a man. So please stop with the bs but you have to please stop the games. The bs is what gets me pissed tf off and running you down. I would much more prefer to go on with my life without completely hating you for the rest of it as long as my family is safe and ok. I really hope those weren’t real screams I heard and just the voices like you say. What is the end game? What is it going to take? Is that what it’s going to take? There are no cost written rules here. I just know that you’ve convinced me both children have been kidnapped, there would be a flood that would wipe out our city and a few others I just can’t think of right now. Please. I’m going crazy. What is it that I have to do? Please tell me. Don’t be scared. I can handle it but I don’t know code and I don’t know the game and it’s making me crazy. You ran out of the apartment so fast once I looked

Is what you are being fed. I wish you would realize that by now. All the “proof” you may have been provided has been fabricated one way or another. The only real way you will ever get the absolute honest truth is from my mouth and only my mouth. Well actually there’s your side, my side and the truth. and that truth is my truth to the best of my knowledge. I love you and I care about you. I really do wish you would come talk to me at my mother’s. And just listen to what I have to say with an open mind. It’s confusing to me as well but I do know that I forgive you and I do because we have both been manipulated and said or done things we never would have in a committed monogamous relationship. Please come see me. You know where my mother lives. I will be here

And you know that. You know that I am broken. You know that I am suffering. You know that I am lost. You know how confused I am and how I wish I could take it all back. Most of all you know how much I really never deserved any of this and how it could have been avoided had you talked to me personally rather than getting your information through all the lies I told everyone around me. You know exactly how fucked up all of this is and exactly how to stop all my pain and suffering yet you still decide to spit on me and kick me while I’m at my loneliest but still hanging on to the hope of getting any one single answer. I was an idiot thinking you would ever face me and yet I still wait while you continue to get lied to. I’m positive everything you’ve been told about me has been a lie or against my wishes and or consent. I don’t even know the half of the things I have been through because of what was given to me against my wishes, knowledge or consent. The person behind it all deserves the maximum punishment

I miss when times were much simpler. I catch myself often thinking about the very first time we spent time together ALONE. I miss those days before we ever had an argument and before I could ever look at you in any other way than perfect. I would love to go back even just for a moment. Why did things have to get so complicated. I miss YOU and I miss the man who looked at me the way he once did.

I never have. If there’s something you need to say then you have to say it. I’m too dumb and oblivious to understand so explain it to me like I’m 5.