u/ImpossibleCry8181

[astro-seek] advice needed on personality, career.

Hi, I'm really struggling to have a clear view on to who I am, where I actually belong(even which class of people, it seems) and what I am actually capable of achieving in my life. I find myself always somewhere, where Io feel I don't belong there. It's frustrating, it's killing me, it affects my selfesteem, my relationships. It makes me do not want to even exist anymore. How can I make this life real? Thank you.

u/ImpossibleCry8181 — 3 days ago

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Cave art

What does it mean to see animated like cave art, during the ayahuasca ceremony? I've seen on the floor drawing of a cave man walking, then he somehow turned into hunter, throwing his spear in front of him.The whole ceremony was pretty heavy, I've seen my parents there, which I had problem with my whole life too. Vomiting some black goo, experienced also something like involuntarily yoga postures, there was a lots of yawning, that I could barely breath. 2 -3years after ceremony was pretty heavy. Suicidal thoughts, depression, tiredness, nightmares, identity crises even the gender one. Basically ran away from relationship, which I later found out reminded me the parents one. And my ex seemed like my parents, mainly like my father. I'm still pretty isolated, being on my own mainly, basically just going to work. Anyone experienced something heavy like that? How did you go through this?

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u/ImpossibleCry8181 — 12 days ago