r/Ayahuasca

Just curious about how common cannabis use is in this community. No judgment one way or another, just interested in the general breakdown and the prevalence of cannabis use in the community.

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I know there’s plenty of medicinal herbs that can be added to a plant dieta and the list of foods to avoid, but what are your favorite meals to eat to prepare before ceremony or even after during integration?

I know it can give you a lot to deal with, and people occasionally deal with a (hopefully) temporary psychosis.

I think about Aya all the time. And it helpfully makes me think about my own immediate state. I know I need help, badly. But I'm not sure I can take much more psychologically without being offered some sort of tool along with it.
I recently had a pretty big creative "awakening". Things have been getting much more vivid for me and I felt my interactions becoming more authentic.. in many ways. But somehow I walked into the proverbial wall and am absolutely shelled off from it now. It's the same mechanism that has fucked with my life and my head for over a decade now.

At times I feel ok, and at times I know I need help desperately. While I feel like i've been learning about what's on my plate currently, I deeply struggle against the same things that have been holding me back all my life. I've been in talk therapy for years. I'm just tired as shit.

I want to listen to what she has to say, and I have conversations with myself (in attempt to "pray" to her, whatever that means) about what might be lying ahead or within.. what might happen.

I thought I felt called for a while. A part of me feels like it's a cop out and the strength is there, another part of me feels that in and of itself is a stubborn cop out because I'm afraid.

I've been in a phase where I'm trying to face my own "madness". I've had a few somewhat cathartic moments of terror, but I think the fear of psychosis is still there. Like I'm learning to look at it, so maybe it's another bout of self sabatoge to make it all the more heavy.

I know Aya is not a shortcut. I know it won't be easy. I just don't know what else to do.
For years I've woken up with a rotting in my stomach and some deep looming despair and depression. Stuck in a room largely unable to take care of myself (getting better) or move forward with my life.

I'm exhausted of the cage I put myself in.

I'm about to make a trip for myself for a couple months, and if I go, this would be the first thing I do on the trip. And I hope to see many beautiful spots.

I know this post is all over the place, just a second draft stream of consciousness bit about my uncertainty.

Dear all,

I have a question. I was planing to go to a 5 days ceremony, but in the last 2 weeks my body feels tired from work and exercising. I will also need to drive before and after the ceremonies for around 10 hours. I am seriously considering to cancel my trip, because I feel tired, and I think I might need another way of spending my days off. What is your experience and recommendation? I really want to go, but on the other hand it feels like too much at this moment. Thank you!

I am looking for a high-level practitioner for a systemic, non-traditional extraction. This is not a "clearing" or general energy healing issue; it is a hostile, persistent grid-attachment using biological nodes and physical infrastructure to monitor and harvest data. I have been to 4 practitioners and it has reflected negative impact and major reroutes
Requirements:

I need someone proficient in Grid-Work, Entity Extraction, cloning and Geomantic Site-Resetting. If you specialize in systemic/architectural interference and hostile occupations,

Experience also in investigation, locating spiritually. Someone who works in the spirit and can locate these things.

California or remote.

I have had a fairly good experience with other pschdelics infact thwt are usually my substance of choice but i have never been able to come acrosss ayahusca

Stranded in a tier 3 city and the inability to travel has made it very impossible so im trying to make it myself

Can someone please get me a simple recipe to make a brew i know about the plants and MAOI but idk the how to

If you guys could give me a recipe and some tips that would be very helpful

How was the group size & vibe, did it feel genuinely traditional or was it adapted a lot for foreigners?

How was safety & screening (medical/psych questions before you were accepted)?

I’m traveling solo, anything I should know about arriving alone, getting from Iquitos to the center, or being the only solo traveler in the group?

Any red flags or things you wish you’d asked beforehand?

Also what can I just expect over all, not the experience but the days leading up to it

Not looking for a luxury experience, very authentic only, more interested in authenticity & safety over amenities. Appreciate any honest input, including if you’d steer me somewhere entirely.

I've made a tea with 3g of Syrian Rue to try it alone before adding Mimosa.

During the first hour I was feeling relaxed and in a deep meditative state, but after that I started feeling stimulated/anxious/panicked, I couldn't get up from bed, my head was spinning, I had visual and auditory hallucinations that lasted for hours with a sense of doom as well as negative/suicidal racing thoughts, the front of my head felt very stimulated, I couldn't move from my bed. I tried to put some music but it felt as if it was sped up.

I took propranolol and xanax but it didn't help at all, I had to wait 8 hours for physical symptoms to improve and 24 hours for the anxiety to fully subside.

Maybe a lower dose is enough in my case? Should I try 1g of Syrian Rue with 1g of Mimosa first?

Mama Aya is calling again and I’m looking to sit this month. Apparently I’m willing to travel (within the US) because I’m now looking at states outside of my own, not a lot of options here.

Deciding between a Huni Kuin retreat or Kamensta Inga with Taita Hector Ortiz.

Experience anyone?

Hi everyone,

I’m looking for some information about Chacruna variability when used with Caapi.

I have previous experience with Ayahuasca-style brews using Caapi and Mimosa (and i usually use 4-5g of mimosa), but this time I’m considering Chacruna because it is the more traditional admixture. The Chacruna I have is Peruvian, and I’ve read very mixed reports about potency and dosage ranges, especially compared with Hawaiian material.

I’ve read people mention very different amounts: some sources, including DMT-Nexus and some posts here, refer to around 50 g as a moderate amount, while other users report using much less (15-20g) and say that 50 g sounds excessive.

I’m not asking for a “heroic” recommendation but neither a light one (like 4-5g of Mimosa). I’m mainly interested in people’s experiences with Chacruna, how variable it tends to be.

Thank you guys ❤️

How do you determine what retreats are good, experienced, are like what they advertise they will be?

Anyone have good experience?

Ones to stay away from?

Hola soy alguien que quiere probar ayahuasca por primera con un amigo, pero de los retiros que eh visto cobran un precio alto y como nosotros somos estudiantes nos cuesta que nos recomienda o donde podriamos ir

Hey guys im a 24m looking for a ceremony in San marcos area or nearby my wife just said I could

Something pretty interesting happened to me a couple of weeks ago. It was a normal day, no alcohol, no substance. Then I had this dream in which I was in a ceremony and in this dream it felt like the real thing... all the physical sensations, the body heaviness, the visuals, the expansion. It was so intense that when I woke up I actually felt like I had the residual effect of the end of an Ayahuasca ceremony for about a minute. It was pretty wild. Has it ever happened to anyone here before?

I’m only writing this now, months later, because it has taken me a long time to even find words for what happened.

I had my first ayahuasca ceremony in September 2024 at a place that initially felt very safe. I then sat in three more ceremonies there over the following months, and those experiences were absolutely divine. They were beautiful, grounding, and deeply connective. They brought me closer to my core, my soul, and my sense of being. I felt held, supported, and transformed in the best way.

Then came June 2025. I returned to the same place, but everything felt different. The people were different. The guides were different. The volunteers were different. For reasons I can’t fully explain, the energy felt off from the beginning, including the energy of the medicine itself.

I participated in two ceremonies.

The first night was very harsh. The main guide was a man, and something in me felt that he wasn’t fully up to the responsibility of holding the space. During the ceremony, I felt overwhelming energies of death and a loss of grip on reality. I became frightened and felt like I needed physical comfort, so I raised my hand and asked for a hug. He came and hugged me, but part of me felt a lack of sincerity, which only added to my unease.

The second ceremony was much worse.

The overall energy of the group felt shallow and disconnected. People seemed to be there for surface-level reasons, and the room felt tight and dense. Almost everyone was male—nothing against men—but the energetic balance felt constricted and uncomfortable.

I drank three servings of the medicine. After the third, I felt extremely weak and asked for help to go to the bathroom. An older female volunteer assisted me. I managed to use the bathroom, but I suddenly felt overwhelmed, sick, and deeply unwell. There was no introspection, no beauty—just an intense desire for it all to stop.

I tried to ground myself by washing my face at the sink, but I felt like I was losing control. I told the volunteer, very clearly, “I’m not okay.” Instead of feeling supported, I felt her panic. When I saw her become overwhelmed, something in me collapsed—I physically fell to the floor.

Those moments were terrifying. I felt unsafe, alone, and deeply scared. When more guides arrived, everything felt strangely performative, as if no one was truly present. At that point, my perception completely shifted. I experienced the medicine as dark and malevolent. I saw the people around me as tricksters, even demonic. I kept saying that I wanted it to end, but I was so weak that I couldn’t even lift my arm. Any movement made the effects intensify.

They stayed with me in the bathroom, trying to talk to me, but inside I was experiencing a depth of existential pain, death, sorrow, and terror that I had never imagined was possible. It was indescribable. I kept repeating that the energy felt evil—not as an idea, but as something I was feeling directly.

Eventually, they moved me back onto a mattress in the ceremony room. Lying there, I felt completely shattered. After having such profound, loving ceremonies earlier in the year, I was now seeing humanity in a way that felt cruel, dark, and terrifying. The volunteers felt performative to me, and I perceived shadow aspects of people that deeply disturbed me.

Even after the ceremony ended, the environment felt wrong. People were smoking weed, listening to techno music, and behaving in ways that felt completely incompatible with integration or care. It was incredibly hard for me to digest.

Fast forward to now: I still get flashbacks—not just memories, but visceral sensations of that night. Waves of existential dread and pain arise without warning. I struggle to find words for it. The medicine felt possessed or corrupted to me, as if something had gone wrong in how it was prepared or held. I don’t know how else to describe it.

I’m sharing this because I wonder if anyone else has experienced something similar—ceremonies that felt deeply unsafe, destabilizing, or spiritually dark. I don’t know whether to frame this psychologically, energetically, or symbolically. I only know that it shook me deeply.

I’ve always approached psychedelics with respect, using them to expand awareness, improve mental focus, and grow in ways that help both myself and others. This experience, however, pushed me away from further experimentation. I felt layers of suffering that didn’t feel like mine—suffering I didn’t need to access or carry.

Some days, fragments of that feeling still surface, and I’m not always sure how to work with them.

Please don’t ask me about the location—the place no longer exists. I sat in about five ceremonies there in total, and only the last two were harmful. I’m sharing this simply to speak my truth and to see if others have navigated similar experiences.

Thank you for reading.

Eu andei pesquisando um pouco sobre ayahuasca vi vários vídeos no YouTube uns bons outros ruins..

Meu principal receio é em questão de espíritos vejo o pessoal falando aqui.. que espíritos são esses ?
Eu sou cristã, pra mim o único Deus verdadeiro é Jesus Cristo.

Eu só queria tomar a medicina, não quero servir a nenhum outro Deus.

Digo isso porque quero consagrar a bebida , mas estou num momento bem pra baixo porque terminei um relacionamento de 7 anos pelo simples fato de não me conhecer , parece que vivi a vida toda desassociando pra não enxergar a realidade da vida..

Gostaria de saber pra quem é recomendado tomar essa bebida ? Preciso me auto conhecer , preciso sentir mais amor pelas pessoas, preciso ser mais eu, mas tem alguma coisa me travando que não consigo ser quem eu gostaria de ser.

Uma dúvida que tenho também é em relação quando eu estiver na força, se eu sentir muito medo oque eu devo fazer ? Se eu ver espíritos como vou diferenciar se são bons ou ruins ? Na visão as coisas falam com você ou só aparece imagens ? Tem como se comunicar ?

E a última dúvida, oque mudou de melhor é de pior depois que vc tomou?

Só estou um pouco receosa pois eu tenho labirintite , então se fico muito ansiosa eu sinto vontade de desmaiar fico toda mole passando mal.

Obrigada a todos