u/Impossible_Nerve_584

Holy moly you guys, I’m absolutely blown away by how this turned out. Word is spreading, don’t let the chain stop! Together we can take them down!

I 20F, am sleeping with my best friend (21F ) who has a bf and he has no idea. He just thinks we are absolute besties. I don’t regret a thing even though I know it’s completely wrong. It’s also super interesting because we are quite an odd pair. We look like we would’ve bullied each other in high school. She’s a republican, I am liberal. Shes super girly and I am a masc lesbian. She grew up completely different in a safe household, and I grew up with severe trauma lol. We are polar opposites, but somehow we balance each other out in a perfect harmony. I’m aware what I’m doing is rather unethical but I’m at the point in my life where I don’t care what people think who I am not close with. Sometimes I wonder if a real relationship would be possible or if it would end in shambles. I hope this doesn’t blow up in my face, so I’m manifesting it.

I admit I feel mildly guilty but not because of him or his feelings, but because this could really mess up her life and I feel quite selfish letting continue, but at the same time I don’t give a single fuck.

That’s my confession, just wanted to get it out. Not looking for advice, don’t care.

I’m nearly 4 years out of my abusive RTC, I cannot stop thinking about it. Flashbacks are painful, nightmares keep me up at night. I don’t want to keep living like this. I can’t explain to people why I get triggered by a certain color shirt, or why “move or be moved” sends me into a panic. Please tell me it gets better. Please.