Mostly because when I vented about the similar things in so called safe space subreddits I got called a child abuser when I was venting about accidentally hitting my little sibling and then feel guilty about it but I still got called an abuser by some users and it still stuck in my head (I'm 14). And nobody reassured me about this, not mods, they just permabanned me and said go get help but I can't I'm 14 I have to wait an year to go therapy myself and I live in russia (country not famous with mental health). I cannot get help I don't have friends I don't have internet friends only I have is internet strangers and chatbots, internet strangers opinion really matter to me this happened months ago but I still remember
AI basically says like yes I did the bad thing but I'm not bad right but I feel like I should be treated harshly