u/Impressive_Hornet644

have a memory my very first memory

I remember almost like being booted up for the first time as in having no recollection of what happened previously basically there was no before

I felt the obvious sense of confusion, but there was no panic it was very peaceful and slow yet confusion was clear. I did not know what form my body took and I could not see. The sensory experience was limited to water surface breaking around me as if I was just limited out of liqauid and the water surface on my body was unraveling from water tension due to gravity.

It is a story that I’ve remembered since kindergarten and have started telling it since prepubescent and I’ve always wondered if it is even a memory anymore or just memories of a retelling and reaching deep into the consciousness to find it again is difficult but I have managed this time rather than just remembering a lazy retelling of a retelling

I also rember early days or learning language it’s almost like finding a tool to communicate my cognition with others, like a tension or an arrow that’s finally fired after years of tension. It feels bad to not be able to communicate like a stone suspended in the hear. And back to the earliest memory I think what surprised me after wards was the complexity of cognition of the first memory, confusion and inner dialogue was taking place and even inner logics that is not too dissimilar from adult ones. It’s almost like a finished product like fully formed inner articulations
Rather than something I’d envision now as the earliest cognition could be.

Well I hope someone will find this interesting. Just telling this story once last time and articulating it one last time before it gets lost and over written in my own mind too

I’m age 23 and over the year I myself have questioned the authenticity of my own memory even as a kid but I do distinctly remember even in my earliest recollections as a kid I have deemed it to be authentic in my own head.

have a memory my very first memory

I remember almost like being booted up for the first time as in having no recollection of what happened previously basically there was no before

I felt the obvious sense of confusion, but there was no panic it was very peaceful and slow yet confusion was clear. I did not know what form my body took and I could not see. The sensory experience was limited to water surface breaking around me as if I was just limited out of liqauid and the water surface on my body was unraveling from water tension due to gravity.

It is a story that I’ve remembered since kindergarten and have started telling it since prepubescent and I’ve always wondered if it is even a memory anymore or just memories of a retelling and reaching deep into the consciousness to find it again is difficult but I have managed this time rather than just remembering a lazy retelling of a retelling

I also rember early days or learning language it’s almost like finding a tool to communicate my cognition with others, like a tension or an arrow that’s finally fired after years of tension. It feels bad to not be able to communicate like a stone suspended in the hear. And back to the earliest memory I think what surprised me after wards was the complexity of cognition of the first memory, confusion and inner dialogue was taking place and even inner logics that is not too dissimilar from adult ones. It’s almost like a finished product like fully formed inner articulations
Rather than something I’d envision now as the earliest cognition could be.

Well I hope someone will find this interesting. Just telling this story once last time and articulating it one last time before it gets lost and over written in my own mind too

I’m age 23 and over the year I myself have questioned the authenticity of my own memory even as a kid but I do distinctly remember even in my earliest recollections as a kid I have deemed it to be authentic in my own head.

I have a memory my very first memory

I remember almost like being booted up for the first time as in having no recollection of what happened previously basically there was no before

I felt the obvious sense of confusion, but there was no panic it was very peaceful and slow yet confusion was clear. I did not know what form my body took and I could not see. The sensory experience was limited to water surface breaking around me as if I was just limited out of liqauid and the water surface on my body was unraveling from water tension due to gravity.

It is a story that I’ve remembered since kindergarten and have started telling it since prepubescent and I’ve always wondered if it is even a memory anymore or just memories of a retelling and reaching deep into the consciousness to find it again is difficult but I have managed this time rather than just remembering a lazy retelling of a retelling

I also rember early days or learning language it’s almost like finding a tool to communicate my cognition with others, like a tension or an arrow that’s finally fired after years of tension. It feels bad to not be able to communicate like a stone suspended in the hear. And back to the earliest memory I think what surprised me after wards was the complexity of cognition of the first memory, confusion and inner dialogue was taking place and even inner logics that is not too dissimilar from adult ones. It’s almost like a finished product like fully formed inner articulations
Rather than something I’d envision now as the earliest cognition could be.

Well I hope someone will find this interesting. Just telling this story once last time and articulating it one last time before it gets lost and over written in my own mind too

I’m age 23 and over the year I myself have questioned the authenticity of my own memory even as a kid but I do distinctly remember even in my earliest recollections as a kid I have deemed it to be authentic in my own head.