u/Imstillthinkingwait

Praying but starting to get hopeless

I’m 22\[F\] I haven’t been the most religious person my entire life but I always had a strong believe in Allah and whenever I faced any hardship since my childhood anything that I prayed for Allah granted my dua almost immediately Alhamdulillah and even if it took time it wouldn’t take that long Alhamdulillah Allah got me out of situations I never thought I’ll survive. In 2024 my life started changing in the most beautiful way possible it was like I’m getting my life back my spark back but by the end of that year I got into a much worse space than before due to some wrong decisions I took.

I’m facing some serious emotional distress about something in my life for the past two years and I’m weak enough to not withdraw myself from the situation even though I know it’s not good for me. Something in me tells me to hold on it’ll get better and if it doesn’t then Allah will change my heart in such a way that I’ll never look back at this situation again and replace it with something much better. I strongly believe that. I tried leaving but it’s like a loop I don’t want to get into the details but I agree that I’m not completely cutting myself off from the situation but I’m constantly asking Allah to help me become strong enough to leave or to get some clarity anything that is good for me I’ve lessened my engagement in that place and from the last month I’ve started praying consistently I try read the Quran everyday Suratul Baqarah I’m doing Istighfar I’m even doing Tahajjud and Salatul Duha. I miss out on some prayers sometimes but everything just seems to get worse day by day it’s like I’m continually getting a backlash. The person who used to get everything she’d ask for is suddenly facing this trial and I’m so scared that why is this happening? I cry so much begging Allah to forgive me to be with me I’ve even stopped asking for specific things and just tell Allah to support me to be with me because I’m so tired and I’m fighting my mind everyday to pray regularly it’s like everyday I get this thought “ what’s the point you’ve been doing it for so long with so much hope and even Allah isn’t responding to you, you should stop “ I push through that thought and pray anyways. What do I do?

Praying but starting to get hopeless

I haven’t been the most religious person my entire life but I always had a strong believe in Allah and whenever I faced any hardship since my childhood anything that I prayed for Allah granted my dua almost immediately Alhamdulillah and even if it took time it wouldn’t take that long Alhamdulillah Allah got me out of situations I never thought I’ll survive. In 2024 my life started changing in the most beautiful way possible it was like I’m getting my life back my spark back but by the end of that year I got into a much worse space than before due to some wrong decisions I took.

I’m facing some serious emotional distress about something in my life for the past two years and I’m weak enough to not withdraw myself from the situation even though I know it’s not good for me. Something in me tells me to hold on it’ll get better and if it doesn’t then Allah will change my heart in such a way that I’ll never look back at this situation again and replace it with something much better. I strongly believe that. I tried leaving but it’s like a loop I don’t want to get into the details but I agree that I’m not completely cutting myself off from the situation but I’m constantly asking Allah to help me become strong enough to leave or to get some clarity anything that is good for me I’ve lessened my engagement in that place and from the last month I’ve started praying consistently I try read the Quran everyday Suratul Baqarah I’m doing Istighfar I’m even doing Tahajjud and Salatul Duha. I miss out on some prayers sometimes but everything just seems to get worse day by day it’s like I’m continually getting a backlash. The person who used to get everything she’d ask for is suddenly facing this trial and I’m so scared that why is this happening? I cry so much begging Allah to forgive me to be with me I’ve even stopped asking for specific things and just tell Allah to support me to be with me because I’m so tired and I’m fighting my mind everyday to pray regularly it’s like everyday I get this thought “ what’s the point you’ve been doing it for so long with so much hope and even Allah isn’t responding to you, you should stop “ I push through that thought and pray anyways. What do I do?

I’m 22[F] I haven’t been the most religious person my entire life but I always had a strong believe in Allah and whenever I faced any hardship since my childhood anything that I prayed for Allah granted my dua almost immediately Alhamdulillah and even if it took time it wouldn’t take that long Alhamdulillah Allah got me out of situations I never thought I’ll survive. In 2024 my life started changing in the most beautiful way possible it was like I’m getting my life back my spark back but by the end of that year I got into a much worse space than before due to some wrong decisions I took.

I’m facing some serious emotional distress about something in my life for the past two years and I’m weak enough to not withdraw myself from the situation even though I know it’s not good for me. Something in me tells me to hold on it’ll get better and if it doesn’t then Allah will change my heart in such a way that I’ll never look back at this situation again and replace it with something much better. I strongly believe that. I tried leaving but it’s like a loop I don’t want to get into the details but I agree that I’m not completely cutting myself off from the situation but I’m constantly asking Allah to help me become strong enough to leave or to get some clarity anything that is good for me I’ve lessened my engagement in that place and from the last month I’ve started praying consistently I try read the Quran everyday Suratul Baqarah I’m doing Istighfar I’m even doing Tahajjud and Salatul Duha. I miss out on some prayers sometimes but everything just seems to get worse day by day it’s like I’m continually getting a backlash. The person who used to get everything she’d ask for is suddenly facing this trial and I’m so scared that why is this happening? I cry so much begging Allah to forgive me to be with me I’ve even stopped asking for specific things and just tell Allah to support me to be with me because I’m so tired and I’m fighting my mind everyday to pray regularly it’s like everyday I get this thought “ what’s the point you’ve been doing it for so long with so much hope and even Allah isn’t responding to you, you should stop “ I push through that thought and pray anyways. What do I do?