I need betrayal help
I (21F) have been with my boyfriend (23M) for a year on Sunday. In December, he cheated on me online (it was not physical) and I decided to stay with him and work things out. At the time we were going through a very rough period in our relationship due to his issue with quitting porn. I feel at a loss because I want to work on things with him and I want to be better too because I was not the best partner at that time either but I really struggle with trusting him and not looking through his phone. I found out he had still been watching porn behind my back so I decided to meet in the middle and he can watch basic videos but nothing interactive/real or deepfake. I already struggle with image issues and I feel like he refuses to see this whole situation from my pov. He has past issues with therapy so when I suggested therapy he was not happy about it. (I also brought it up in the heat of the moment and didn’t properly explain I had been thinking about it for a while.) I still think couples therapy would be the best option and I do see us working through our issues. I know this isn’t therapy but maybe some people out there who have been through similar issues can help me out.
How can I bring up couples therapy again or how I have been feeling about our issues without there being an argument that doesn’t go anywhere?