u/InanimateCarbonRod19

Well, I sent a long text to my therapist earlier today explaining the feelings I am struggling with, and she ended up basically telling me the same things other people have. I feel so stuck. I need someone to love and care about me in my daily life for me to heal and get out of this dark hole but everyone tells me I must heal and get better before anyone will be in my life. It's just one of those things. Me and life are at an impasse. I see now for a fact that I have no viable path out of this darkness.

EDIT: I want to kill myself tonight. I don't have a gun so I am gonna try pills

It sucks having amaxophobia so I can't even go anywhere all I can do is go home and be alone. No family, no friends. I binge drink every night after work hoping to die of alcohol poisoning or from choking on my own vomit, I intentionally try to pass out on my back. I have no value as a human being on this planet and it hurts to continue existing as myself. I am a loser. Not even other retail workers respect janitors. Women don't want to date a janitor, not even if they also work a low pay service industry job.

Thanks to the new anti THC laws in Texas I am now cut off from a vital lifeline for me, as someone with severe depression and suicidal ideation, who also is battling alcohol addiction as a result. I am Autistic and extremely isolated socially. I have no friends, so of course I don't have a "plug".

I am going to spiral deeper into alcoholism now. And I am giving serious thought to unaliving myself this weekend.

So, I have been trying to put the potential pieces together in my mind, and this is what I have come up with.

Sebastian Stan is Zsasz, ScarJo is Poison Ivy. But Poison Ivy is named Gilda Dent. she is the adopted daughter of Charles Dance's character, Christopher Dent, and the adopted sister of Harvey Dent, played by Brian Tyree Henry. Both adopted Dents were ophans from the orphanage talked about in the first film. Christopher Dent is a member of the Court of Owls, and he experimented on Gilda (birth name: Pamela Elliot) to turn her into a biological weapon, inspired by the Rappacini's Daughter story that was an inspiration for the creation of Poison Ivy in the comics in the first place.

She is targeting people connected to the Court, wearing a disguise that makes her an amalgamation with the Phantasm. She is a love interest to Bruce. meanwhile the Court is using Victor Zsasz as its right hand man to try to stop Batman and the killings targeting them. He wears disguises and infiltrates Bruce's social circle (he also wears a costume as a Talon in the film, hence "many roles").

The movie takes inspiration from The Game and Court of Owls stories from the comics where Bruce's personal life is targeted. Its also heavily inspired by Mask of the Phantasm, Mattson Tomlin's stated all time favorite Batman film, with Zsasz taking the place of the Joker, the Court taking place of the mob, and Poison Ivy/Gilda Dent/Pamela Elliot taking place of Andrea Beaumont/the Phantasm.