u/IndependenceCivil746

I know it’s entirely too early but seeing videos and posts of women who ‘just knew’ and had symptoms- I have anxiety

I just sit here and try to imagine finding out I’m pregnant but I just can’t imagine it… and my brain is convincing me that means I won’t be.
I feel normal physically except for normal post ovulation symptoms and I’m immediately thinking something is wrong and I won’t be pregnant.

I’ve been pregnant twice before now (both ended in loss)
and both times I got a gut feeling I was before I got a faint positive.
Both times I thought I was 8-10 dpo but that was never confirmed by anything…

This wait is so so hard and filled with so much anxiety.

I’m 26, live with my husband.

Anything in life, I still worry about what my parents will think.

Leaving a job I didn’t like, getting a new one.

My husband and I are trying for a baby and I keep getting anxiety about telling them if I am pregnant… I’m like oh what will they think. What if they think it’s a bad decision, what if they get mad?

But I also don’t care what they think because it’s my life? And my decisions?

I don’t know why I carry around this anxiety!!

my parents were awful to me so why do I care?