u/IndependenceWest7867

I actually hate being alive. It's late at night and I can't seem to fall asleep and I've noticed my depression is just getting worse. I keep wanting to contact a social worker to help me get out of my situation but it keeps slipping my mind and I'm not very confident they'd wanna help me. I don't even know if there are any nearby.

I don't feel like going to college or doing anything anymore and I'm stuck at my parents place. I really hate them and being around them also sucks. I don't know what to do. And I'm really tired.

I no longer eat right, nor do I take care of my hygiene anymore. I'm constantly alone because most other people around me are in a cult, including my family. I have no friends and the ones I did have I was stupid not to keep in touch with them. I regret so many things.

I was wondering if any social workers, more specifically those in south Africa, are able to help a young adult such as myself leave a toxic environment. I'm struggling everyday to even get up in the morning. I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression but I wasn't able to get any medication. other than that my parents quickly forgot about the whole thing like it didn't happen. just recently I learned thaty anxiety would become a huge problem as it manifested physically and my chest started hurting. I'm so very tired and I don't feel like doing anything anymore, ie. college, studying, getting a job, etc. I just really need immediate help but I don't know what to do. I originally thought going to a therapist would be enough but I figured I seriously need to just leave but I don't have the means or the confidence to do so. I'm mentally challenged so leaving would be very difficult.