u/Independent-Draft537

Me and my gf of 8 months recently spent an extended period of time together cause we both had time off of work. We spent that time off right next to each other, for around 4 days straight. It was poorly planned out, we both didn’t make time or space to do our own individual things, and by the end, we were both irritable and didn’t really want to talk to each other. Ever since then it seems like I am just going through the motions to maintain the relationship. I started noticing after all this time things I didn’t like about her, certain traits she has that annoy me, and those stick out to me now, when they never did before. I spent that following week in my own head. I feel now that I can’t seem to be real with her. I still love her and care about her, but the relationship feels so weird to me at the moment. When we hung out for the first time after our extended time period together, I did have fun and laughed, but I just feel guilty, and I have been contemplating breaking up with her. I would like to be able to go back to normal with her, and see if this is worth riding out during a rough patch. What should I do to ride through this rough patch. I’d like to work things out with her but I’m unsure how to amend this situation.

tl;dr - rough spot with my gf, feel like I dont like being with her, but I still care for her. Guidance on how to get out of this.

This is half a post about my relapse, and half about my situation. I am unsure of where to post this and thought this would be a fitting place. Me and my gf started dating less than a year ago. We were each others first relationship, and starting out, I had some issues getting adjusted to being in a relationship, but we’ve always loved and cared about each other. We never had problems in our relationship until recently. We had spent an extended period of time together, which caused both of us to be mad at each other. I was so worked up with her than I relapsed hard on porn for a week straight. That whole week I didn’t see her either. I saw her a few days ago for the first time since we had been mad at each other and although I had a good time, I couldn’t help but feel a gut feeling that it didn’t feel right. I haven’t ever felt this way, and even when we text over the phone and she tells me how much she loves me, I don’t really seem to be that phased by it. I do love and care about her, but it seems like this disagreement we had completely changed me and has made me feel like I need someone different. I used to enjoy the little jokes and cute things she does, now I could care less, and it really does hurt me deep down, but it’s hard for me to force myself into happiness. The worst part is that I feel I have to leave, but how do I even explain this situation to someone. She’s done nothing wrong to me, and I’m the only person she has in her life that’s in her corner. We support each other’s journey to achieve our goals, and now the only person that’s there for her is going to leave her life for a reason that he himself doesn’t understand. I don’t know where to go from here.