u/Independent-Mix6009

I can't take it anymore.

The realisation hit that she is gone forever and forever.

I'm hurting very much. I thought she would come back and she hasn't replied and our values are so completely different that a future together is impossible.

I don't know what to do. She was my first love. No-one knows  of my relationship irl because in my culture it isn't allowed. I'm hurt

She was my first and only.

I make a mental rule not to contact her for 6 weeks but broke it. Flat out told her I love her and miss her and want to talk.

I am spiralling.

Omds

I will be stuck living with a ghost.

She's gone and I'm still waiting. She was my first and only love. I was saving myself and she came in so bright and kind and gave me everything them broke my heart and messaged other guys begging for dates and left.

I booked tickets from England to America to meet her IRL for the first time ever but she broke up before it.

Says she was too scared to meet me and thinks I'd hate her when I see her IRL and then messages online asking randos to meet and then leaves me.

I fear that I will be in an empty waiting room forever while she moves on and ddoesn't even think of me.