u/Independent-Rip7447

I turned 18 like 2 months ago and decided to cam for the first time a few days ago. I did a snapchat call with 2 dudes, 1 of them 35 yrs old and the other 29 yrs old. Ik I signed up for it but I hated it sm. when I told the second guy my age he said "I feel bad and guilty rn because this is bordering pedophilia" but then after we talked for like 30 min he wanted me to call him "daddy" and masturbate on cam 💀. LIKE WHY ARE YOU PRETENDING TO CARE when u literally don't give a fuck about me. he was like "I'll make u feel more comfortable by getting to know u more" bro that doesn't do shit. I don't want to masturbate with u you're more than 10 years older than me ts is so gross. I don't wanna do this anymore but I really need to make money 😔. and I was stupid enough to tell him what college I'm going to because he was acting rlly nice at first... but I was so naive. now I'm scared he's gonna contact my college and send a recording of what I did w/ him on cam.. UGHH I low-key wish I never did this but at the same time I keep thinking abt it and it gives me a strange sense of validation because if people are paying for my services that means they think I'm attractive ig 🥹. and I have no sexual experience so other than this I feel so unconfident and fat and ugly. bro

I just feel so guilty and Im also scared one of them will send my dad the nudes I sent bc he saw my name on cash app so he is able to find my socials.

and I can't tell any of my friends or siblings or parents abt this because they would be terrified and appalled

bro it's 92 degrees and I'm carrying a heavy ass shoulder bag with terribly thin straps 🥲. and my shoulder hurts but my backpacks are all filthy with scraps of paper and random dust/dirt so idk how to clean it and I'm too lazy. I drank a matcha latte and a Diet Coke and now I feel so physically full like imma throwup but I don't wanna make myself throwup or anything so I'm just stuck like this. BROO why can't I just be a ghost or something so I don't have to feel full, hot, heavy bags, etc. imma friggin crash out and I might be rescinded from the t20 university I got into. bro fml fml fml fml fml fml fml fml IM CRASHING OUT OVER REDDIT BECAUSE IM IN A WHOLE FOODS. ugghshsghgshh;jhgskjhgsk;jhgskjhkfjhgskjlhljhgsflkhgsj;hgfkj;hgskhgv

what are my chances of getting into uc berk from berkeley city college as a transfer if i get rescinded for low senior grades rn

im from oos but i wanna go to cc in cali if i get rescinded so i can reapply but are my chances of transfer reduced bc i got rescinded the previous year

i havent gotten rescinded yet but there's a large chance i will if my teachers don't have mercy on me