My sweet girlfriend is bipolar and i am concerned.
I love her so much and deeply attracted to her, she’s so sweet, loyal, caring and loving.
But i am always afraid so much while being with her, because her mania phase also includes psychosis, and that makes me feel afraid to share any private information with her, even my personal pictures or pictures i take while in my work feels super risky (which is normal to share things in regular relationships) but i am always afraid that my baby to be a possible enemy in her mania phase and leak every information about me or to be against me for whatever the reason. Also i am so afraid of having any sexual things with her because i am anxious that she might tell people (we’re in a conservative society). I am even afraid that if we break up at anytime that she can ruin my next relationship.
So my question is: even when she’s every day tells me things like (it’s honor to have a man like you in my life, you’re the best man i have ever met, you’re my guardian angel,etc) can she be turned against me for whatever the reason thinking am bad to her in her mind during possible mania?
Should i be afraid that much?
she cares so much about her medication. But at any point in her life she can skip it, and this makes me afraid.