(upd) of all the problems i could be having rn, why loneliness? andaming tao sa campus
title text. but yeah my workload is racking up since patapos na sem, and i’m looking forward to a break. but with the end of classes comes all this free time to spiral on thoughts like i didn’t make deep enough connections this year, should’ve talked to more people, could’ve initiated more… but the thing is, i feel like i initiate normal amounts naman? but maybe ive cultivated the reputation na im always initiating so no one really invites me to stuff anymore. but i want to get to know people more. but also im just so tired of starting conversations only to be met by polite, lukewarm responses. why does it feel like no one wants to engage in relationships anymore that aren’t romantic or centered around “the more people the merrier”. crowds in diliman just seem to have enough in their own lives going on to entertain a new friendship. i have stuff going on in my own life din naman, but idk. i feel like a clam shell. might delete later
edit: also this is ironic but online friendships just don’t click for me, idk how to navigate those and lowk i’ve stopped trying. ty sa replies tho …