u/Indian_Phonecalls — reddlx

This is basically unedited from the minutes after I woke up so it’s rough but any interpretations would be appreciated:

My relevant life context currently: New second child about to arrive, I’m slacking off when I need to kick into high gear. Also, never have reached my full potential.

My current interpretation: I’m living wishy-washy and am a fraction of what I could be. Or maybe I don’t know who I am?

Dream 5/3: At a friend’s grandparents house, they had just moved in april but were moving again. they were of means. there was a dark room with a table and a old woman who was possibly a maid or something sitting on one side that looked like a renaissance painting. She was looking perpendicular to me. i was then in the kitchen. my friends grandpa (it was not actually my friends grandpa but in the dream it was) told me they were moving from this new house. he said they had a guy that could get them into places where people had broken leases or that he could get them out of their new house contract. etc. He said the guy ran Astria (it was understood this was a big corporation), said the CEO guy does real estate in his free time. I said he must be a good guy to know. he said it’s good when you need a superhuman. i asked “didn’t you just move here in april? why are you moving? he and his wife had me look at this 12x6” horizontal rectangle hole in the wall. The grandpa stood by me kind of forcefully putting his hand on my shoulder out of reassurance and comradery like some old timers do. he might have slightly forced me to look through. it was understood that the reason they were moving was outside through the opening. i looked through to the outside back yard of the house and saw abstract shapes and things i can’t remember, but at the center was a shattered piece of a mirror with what looked like my eye in it, as if it was my reflection but broken. it was scary as if the reason they were moving was because the place was haunted. the dream now had a nightmare quality. I said “what is that?” in a startled manner. they said, “you can go through that hole if so choose to” i remember nothing else but waking up and not being able to breathe and being paralyzed. I fought through it but it was intense enough that I thought maybe they were asking me in the dream if I wanted to die or not. I woke up and everything was normal. I’m not sure if the “not breathing” actually happened or just hallucination from sleep paralysis. also, I don’t think they were asking if I wanted to die. Also, I looked up Astria and it is not a real big corporation. funny enough I guess it’s the goddess or justice and truth. pretty wild because I have know memory of ever knowing that.