Emotional abuse
I was dating a dismissive avoidant for 2 years, we recently broke up and bc it was like the 15th time of him pulling away I’m kind of numb to it and relieved. He was emotionally abusive outside of backing away every time we got close. He’d constantly give me the silent treatment out of nowhere, he’d gaslight me into thinking i was needy, his moods dictated our relationship always. I felt like i was just chasing him for a year and 1/2. The biggest problem is he started to comment on my physical appearance. I don’t know how or why he started to do this, but the closer we got overtime it seemed like he couldn’t stand me. We’d have the best night or week, and all of the sudden he was PISSED. He would try to start fights or take shots at me. It ate away at my self esteem to the point i felt like he was so much better than me. I think we both thought that by the end. Now I’m left with this hate for my body…I don’t know how i will ever feel comfortable being intimate with anyone, any time soon. I feel like I’ll want to apologize in advance for how my body looks. I’m in therapy and I had these issues 4 years ago when i started so it’s always a struggle. He knew this, and I feel like he confirmed all my own insecurities and i don’t know why he would do that but he would be so hot and cold with me that I lost myself in it. I’m not upset about losing him, I’m upset I’m stuck with myself and my body.