AITAH for getting mad at my boyfriend?
Hi! So i, 19F, have been dating my boyfriend, 21M, for a little over a year. Recently we have been doing long distance since i started school in a different country (we are from Netherlands, im studying in Denmark). Ever since then, weve been trying to spend time together playing games. Ive always been a yapper and he always said thats the one thing he likes about me but ever since we started doing these calls, hes been less and less focusing on what im saying. I always try to keep him in loop but he started just sounding uninterested. I get that playing a game and listening at the same time is hard - thats why i always talk only when we are both dead or when we are in the loading screen. Now lets go to the issue itself - always when i talk, he either starts listening to tiktok, singing, playing his piano or just straight up ignores me. Its been going on like this for a while and ive found myself just getting more and more quiet, which is simply not me and its starting to really annoy me. On our last call, i was talking to him and in the start he was reacting and everything but then he just started singing. When i went "alright never mind" he told me to just shut up and stop being dramatic + that he wasnt listening to what i said for the last minute anyway. I obviously got hurt and just went quiet and didnt really talk until we went to sleep. Towards the end he started saying how quiet i am and that i usually talk more so i was honest and told him that hes been very vocal about not caring and listening anyways so i didnt see the point in talking. He started getting mad, saying that im being dramatic and that hes been normal. We ended up in a fight and havent talked since. I dont want to be the one apologising since i ALWAYS apologised first no matter what but i really feel like i have a right to be hurt by this. I also want to add that he has NEVER been like this in real life - he was always supportive, listened or told me he is not in the mood beforehand and i respected it. He also had been normal in messages, its just the calls that seems to be the issue.
So AITAH for being mad and not apologising?