What would you change if you could make any part of you more feminine or masculine

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For the past few weeks, I've been hiding the fact that I've been researching whether I might be trans. I really need to tell someone, even if it's just one person, because the person I would normally talk to isn't someone I can contact until September 2. They don't have a phone, so I have no way of reaching them.

I feel like this is the only place where I can finally talk about it. From what I've seen, this community is really kind and inclusive, and I'm hoping you might be able to give me some advice or share your experiences. I'm feeling confused and could really use someone to listen. Anything help even if you are MtF FtM or nonbinary