Being reminded how much people hate us.
I don't know how familiar you folks are with the YouTube channel Jubilee, but I just discovered earlier today a video they released a few months ago where (in)famous trainer Jillian Michaels had a "debate" with a bunch of "body positivity activists", who I'm sure were just influencers that are not experts in anything, saying ridiculous and outrageous things designed to make Jillian look more credible regardless of whatever nonsense she says.
This is pretty much Jubilee's m.o. so I wasn't surprised. They always pit controversial figures against each other to stir up drama and cause rifts. My issue was that the video amassed over 7 million views, which is the most views the channel has had in over a year. Why did so many people watch this video? Are there really that many people that want to waste their time watching a has-been "celebrity" dunk on a bunch of children?
I really try to make myself believe that most people don't care about us and aren't thinking about us. But then I see numbers like this and I can't help but wonder how many people I pass by every day that secretly and silently judge us and look at us with disgust when we're just trying to live our lives and get by like everyone else. It makes me just want to give up.
Also, I did not watch the video. Didn't want to give it a view.