u/InevitableSquare4817

Starting over.

Starting over.

Has anyone does this? Can anyone help?

Lately it's been getting to me more that I am not and never will be a gigapassoid, that I am ugly passoid ish poon with clocky traits.

Having friends know I am trans just remind me of all these traits, and I can it erase their memories. Having trans friends just makes me sadder, since they mog me to dead. I have on friend that is openly out so my cissoids know, and even they admitted he mogs me. They, themselves, mog me.

It's an endless cycle of waking up feeling decent just to see people I love, like, have much better lives to me, and struggling to be happy, not because I am not, but just because ALL I ever did all my life was to transition, hell I had realistic goals, I just wanted to pass as much as other trans men (non-theyfab, shut up), but I am far below that. It ruins my own self perception to see people that got it all fucking up their doses, getting help to DIY, "being groomed into it", when Ibeggedg my ass in ONGS at 13, 14, 15, 16.

I want to cut all tied related to me being trans. I want to force myself into thinking I am a cissoid male in people's minds and nothing else. I don't use social media besides this which will be gone soon too. I want to take it a step further and block all friends and family who know I am a train​, since I just graduated.

How to proceed with this without being an asshole?

u/InevitableSquare4817 — 3 days ago

Location Hopefuel

Posted on a Romanian gen Z subreddit about trans knees and they were overwhelming supportive and asking nice questions. Maybe there's more hope within the newgen, people over 30, but max 50 are the problem, they'll die however fast enough hopefully.

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u/InevitableSquare4817 — 3 days ago
▲ 34 r/RoGenZ

Bărbat trans în curs de tranziție medicală, AMA

Despre mine: 18M, pe testosteron injectabil de un an (Test C și Test E alternat), 2 luni de la mastectomie/top surgery, histo totală (posibil sistem public?la în Septembrie, depus dosarul pentru schimbarea sexului în acte a cărui decizie o primesc în Septembrie la final.

Îmi voi finaliza cam 80% (mai rămâne bottom surgery/metoidioplastia) din tranziție înainte de universitate și aș dori să aflu ce întrebări aveți pentru mine ca persoană care a tranziționat un pic mai mult decât comunitatea trans în general din mediul online românesc.

Vă pot oferi informații și despre existența mea tranziționând social în mijlocul liceului cu bune și rele, sau despre rapoartele psihiatrice de care am avut nevoie (3 la număr) și cum m-au ajutat ele în tranziția medico-juridică.

Nu doresc întrebări despre ideologii politice, știu tematica subredditului. Mulțumesc!

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u/InevitableSquare4817 — 4 days ago

Igmi, I looked in the mirror

Brag post, but this is the best thing I have ever experienced. For the first time in forever, my own reflection stared back at me as we were one, instead of if I looked at a stranger. My waist gained 3in, I am post top surgery, my cock passes enough to look like a micro. My hips are mostly hip dips, and my only issue is my big thighs, the rest passes. I saw a man in the mirror when I looked today and that man was me, and I will never be able to dream of killing myself knowing I can maybe fully pass one day.

u/InevitableSquare4817 — 5 days ago

To up or not to up my dose?

Blood tests came here. Had to lower my dose because my hematocrit was crazy, now it's normalising. Hemoglobin dropped. T came at 792ng/dL (27.46nmol/L) 3d after shot, ​which is kind of low. My dose is now 85mg, at 100mg I got 1.230ng/dL 💀. Wondering if I should up my dose a bit or keep it knowing besides these I am gonna get on proviron and DHT cream too.

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u/InevitableSquare4817 — 6 days ago

I'm bored, what to invest in

- Minox powder (for beard and my thin ​ass AFAB eyebrows)

- More DHT powder

- Anavar (possible to help alongside T for androgenic properties, found a study it helped pubertal and close to the end of it XO turner women gain more height than HGH)

- HGH for my dick let

- More Test E ​powder (buying this anyway alongside one of whatever)

I have 250€ in crypto saved for brewing my own T, but I think the current quantity id get for that is overkill. No taking save them up or shit

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u/InevitableSquare4817 — 8 days ago

All Romanian poons assemble

Westoids rope alongside ameritroons (seething with jealousy)

If you are a Romanian poons, where the fuck did you have your hysto and how for free/partially covered by insurance?

I'm 18 and I am supposed to wait until 21 here "what if I regret it" because the insurance house is handicapped. Where did you find a doc to lie about your motive or somehow get it under real true motive of sex dysphoria? Dm me too. I'm a year on T and have a lot of psychiatric reports, therefore I am a good case, it's just no surgeon in my dog shit region is getting approved by the hospital to do it.

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u/InevitableSquare4817 — 9 days ago

1y on T today exactly. What can I improve?

I know I pass to the cis eye. Wondering what other trans people think of me and what I could improve generally even appearance wise. 1y on T, 1.5mo post top, soon post hysto. 18M + romanian. 2nd pic is from collage taken today​, 2nd pic is 4mo ​T for a comparison!

u/InevitableSquare4817 — 10 days ago