i always hate asking irls if my eyeliner looks bad, bcz even when it does they say it dosent to make me feel good!! i need an honest opinion. is it good? does puppyliner look better? how do i improve??
so, this story starts when the first couple periods my other friends had told me this girl had a cart, i have tried a cart before and assumed since my friends had tried it i thought it would be fine. timeskip to fouth period where me and the girl head up to the bathroom, she goes to the stall next to me and hands me the cart. it was quite tiny but i wasnt an expert on carts so i didnt mind it, i take a hit and hand it back over to her. it sounded like she was taking more and more hits yet i reach under and she was already holding it out for me, witch to now my sober brain thinks she was hitting the non-laced cart. anyway, since i felt pressured because i heard her taking hits i took like at least 8. we leave the bathroom and as im going down the stairs it felt as if i could feel the steps in my feet ravel up to my brain, making it to gym class everything felt slower. noises got louder and i was shocked because i had never experience this, and also because it hit immitealy. my vision was bigger and a wider range, and i could see myself in my own vision. then when i sat down things started spinning, this is when it felt like i couldnt close my eyes and i really started to panic. i couldnt escape it, it was in my own mind. i try and speak to the friend, not thinking straight just over and over "call the cops" of course, she didnt. just told me to calm down until i had yelled for the teacher, they asked a bunch of quiestions and all i remeber was trying to take my willpower into telling them, and hitting my hest because i was convinced that was the only way my heart could beat. at this point, i saw in my vision the inside of my body and that my joints were spinning. they take me outside, and it had felt like a dream. i could predict anything the teacher was about to say, it veryed but walking was hard. at this point it also felt like my mouth was spinning and that i couldnt stop it. timeskip, i go into the nurse and my father shows up, he is trying to coach me how to breathe, i dont remeber exactly what happend but he had told me i was tensed and cleched so much he was worried i would have a seizure. im not sure if this memory is correct, but when i was in the er van i remeber the girl who had gave it to me being yelled at by her dad. in th er, i was told to take out my contacts witch was a big problem because whenever it had felt like i was almost touching them the nurse told me i wasnt even close. and it ade the trip worse when she had tired to do them herself, so eventually i got them out. the people at the er were really nice and understanding, they had gave me a ton of snacks. when i eventually cooled down after hours and the spinning stopped i was able to go home, just to find on my phone, people thought i was faking. um. so thx <3