u/Infamous_Cow9377

I feel gross, I feel disgusting, I feel like a wh***, I feel betrayed because the person didn’t disclose, I feel nasty, I feel used up

I have all the education I need about this to not feel this way. But I still do.
How could anyone ever want me again?
How will I ever let go during sex without an aching feel that I’m gonna infect someone with my grossly diseased vagina? I’m disgusting.

If I’m gonna give a partner oral which is very likely in a relationship and HSV1 and 2 can be oral, what the hell is the difference fr? I’m so stressed out and I know this question might make me an asshole, but one is really not that different from the other in a long term partnership being I’m going to go down and them and they could just get it that way, it’s still disclosure of herpes but just different location and same amount of risk with how much I like giving head and men like receiving it. 😭