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ranting here because i don't feel comfortable discussing it with my friends..

so we belong to a lower middle class family with my father being a sole earner of the family.

i understand that financially we aren't that stable but my relationship with my parents is non existent , yes poverty plays a big role in it.

but i feel like I'm in a jail, i can't do anything, mentally I'm suffering from being with them.

we have no personal rooms or any personal corner at our home.

and my parents are abusive too, i know they don't really mean it but they use very harsh words against me , i get beaten up minimum thrice a week.

I'm in clg doing something I have no interest in just because i got scholarship from this clg and they don't have to pay any of my clg fees. but I feel suffocated, I'm afraid of my future..how will it turn out since I'm doing nothing to make it better

i really want to do something but these arguments really do so much damage to my mental health that I don't feel like doing anything

there is a room in my house which is not completely furnished like there's no door no flooring no paint nothing..

it's been a while since I'm convincing my parents to do something there to make it livable but there response is they don't trust me if I get a room I will misuse it. when I tell them to atleast get me a door they say they don't have money even for that...

now it is really affecting me, everytime something happens i have nowhere to go to even cry

even today I argued about that... i wish I could get a personal space

that's it thanks for listening