Hmmm. So how faked up am I in my scenario..! Please be honest..!
So I used to drink 40 units of alcohol per week for 6 years and later when I decided to get rehab I got into a streak of drinking 98 units per week for a streak of 1 month, yea I'm a noob but how fucked am I, I am 6 ft 65kg and I eat twice per day minimal and some times I don't..! When I go sober for a day or two and when I try to sleep, I get this numbness in my toes and right thigh and in my face especially near my eye and my throat gets heavy and my ears start to feel heavy and when I am about to sleep there will be this sudden urge to jerk(heavy jeark of my arm and leg to a certain height level)my body into not sleeping and it goes for around 2-3 hrs and when I get tHe sLeEp and have that nightmare dreams and I do remember every part of it and can control at times. What can I really do to quit this alcoholism, slowly and controlled with some cheat codes..! Please help me..! I asked my family for help but they are too normal to address this. And my friends got their own thing to be worried about and don't want to stress them..! I don't want to die but want to just survive and enjoy my life and don't tell me to do hard work and all. Fak that..! And yea I live in iNdIa..! Shit stain of a country and its ways and I struggle being alive and being me. Please give a genuine way to overcome this for a early fucked up person..! All I want is to sleep peacefully and be myself and eat tasty food..! I don't want a family or kids, I just want to be alive...!