Im very suicidal and I don't know how else to get help. I can't keep doing this. I try so hard. So hard. My kids need me but I'm losing this fight. No one will listen to me. They weaponize my words against me and trap me in ice. Please help me. My kids deserve more.
Idk. I've wanted to die as long as I can remember. I build and I burn. Then I stomp on the ashes as it continues crumbling around me. Why don't the people I love, love me back? Maybe I was just a pawn in their game of chess. The mother of my children and the woman I've dedicated my life to can easily lay in bed with another man. Our bed. Our room. Our house. No sentiment? No remorse? I was never considered. How do I move forward? What about my children? How can someone so heartless and someone so broken provide the life they need? Im stuck. Cycle of self hate and self loathing. But what other option is there?