u/Inner_Banana_1841

He serial cheated from day 1. Everything was built upon lies. I do not know this person and I never really did. 6 weeks ago I had called him for the last time ever. A quick 30 second phone call after I found out again he was cheating and going on girls tiktok accounts that he cheated with and begging them to talk to him with multiple fake accounts. He lied and told me that wasn’t him I named the account and said I know it’s you he said “fine” but “that’s not cheating”. His notes were filled with multiple other women’s names and what he was going to buy them. I hung up the call and hadn’t spoke to him since. He is blocked on everything. Before this I caught 3 more times of him blatantly lying to me about things that I literally saw him do. Every single day he had to lie about something.

Yesterday I checked his TikTok and twitch and he’s helping another women he was cheating with that he lied about and he’s commenting how proud of her he is. I guess they are closer than ever. I’ll never know the truth of anything. He cheated with literally everyone and put himself on purpose in situations literally looking and sought out more and more girls online to cheat with.

Every single day it was me finding out something new, 1% more of the puzzle that all never find all the pieces to. Our 6 year anniversary came up and he did nothing. This is how he treated me while he spoils all these other women and builds more connections finding out more things about these women and more things they like so he can make them happy and spoil them.

This is what I have to live with. The unknown. Another night crying in my bed before bed while he’s on FaceTime paying for other women’s time and I’m sure I don’t even cross his mind in these past 6 weeks since I blocked him except for when he wants someone to use then for a split second I might come up in his mind.

This is my life. Cheating on cheating. Lies on lies. Betrayal. Disrespect. Laughing it me mocking me telling me I was crazy while everything I said was always true.

so so down and depressed. 6 weeks since I blocked him and the last time I spoke to him he said it wasn’t cheating when I found all the messages with him and exes and “friends” that I had a feeling he was lying about and other random women. He lied to my face, wiped his phone of all evidence then I saw him commenting on the girls page days later and he had no choice but to admit he deleted things from his phone but still didn’t call it cheating cause it made him feel better. I am so sad so depressed nothing makes me happy I sit in my bed and cry. I have no social circle no nothing. Just lie in my bed on weeeknds and spend 3 hours at the gym. Would’ve been 6 years and he didn’t even get me anything for our anniversary right before I left after I couldn’t take the lies anymore. I don’t even know how to date anymore it’s been so long my last relationship before this was my high school bf. I don’t think I will ever find someone since I wallow and self pity and lay in my bed all evening. Life sucks. I think about this man everyday and wish I could reach out while I see him on his socials talking to all these other women sweetly while he was not like that to me. I wish I didn’t want to reach out and I wish I didn’t think about him constantly because I can never be with him or even have contact with him he is a pathological liar.