u/Inquisitor_709

Yesterday went negative $1,700 or something and got super lucky and won enough to be in profit…. I waited for cash out and deleted the app…… well today i was bored so ended up redownloding and ended up $4,400 in debt so also lost like $600 I had won last time on top of it…. And again got lucky and annoyingly cant cash out all because they have daily withdrawal limits…… I have currently cashing out $4,750 whichwill cover the debt and a little profit for me…. But $700+ is trapped on there….. I DO NOT WANT TO PLAY……. I need help finding some way to occupy my mind so I dont go there… and now I have money trapped on there making it 1000x harder…. And now weekly cash free play and more because I spent so much on there which makes it harder for me not to go back. If I lost in the end….. I dont even know I have enough assets to cover the $4,400…. My life would of been over…….

So please send me advice to distract myself. Ive been through therapy before and have a lot of tools but its like hypnotic….. i mean im literally shaking on the floor right now from the stress and im so disappointed in myself and I told my parents about yesterday but there is no way I could tell them about today.

Ive been doing pretty good since I learned the mobile slots I was playing had a gambler addict settings that cant be changed. I set limits on it so I could never bid too much ever again……. But I was still seeking slots I just wanted to find ones that were fake money to play. I downloaded one that popped up in an ad and turns out it’s both non-cash and cash slots. I couldnt control myself from doing all the starter bonus bundles……. Lost all that….. paid in to a point I would have no choice but to sell some of my gold off to pay….. and then the panic hot and I started betting more and more to a point I was $1,700 in debt which would probably whipe out all the gold I have and leave me broke…… I wasn’t even betting low I was betting $5 a spin and adding $100-$200 deposits to keep trying chasing bonus rounds hoping one would help me get back up…… I won upto $900 but it still wasnt the $1,700 I owed so I switched slots and was paying $200 to instant go into the bonus game….. id lose a little then win more then lose a lot but win it back up….. I got to a point I was praying for anyone to help me just win back what I became in debt for and bet $300 on a premium bonus round… won back $280 so I did it again and I won big…….. I won so much Im almost $1000 in profit but it doesnt feel good… it takes 1-5 days for my money to cash out so im stuck with the app sitting there knowing I almost lost everything I had….. and then thinking I won $1,000 I can risk some more….. I dont want to… fear deleting the app will mess up the withdrawls….. I know tonight I wont touch it at all but Im already worried about tomorrow….. I want the money out so I can delete it because I never intended to ply another cash game knowing how wreckless I get and how easy it is to ruin everything Ive been working towards….. I told my dad and of course he was mad I was touching his money again when I shouldnt be and he is already stressed about money…. I tood my mom and asked her while we are together to keep an eye on me and make sure I dont play….. but for right now it feels like im sitting in a space of impending doom the slots just one click away while I dont want to touch them at all it pulls me….. 1-5 days…… I really do hope it arrives tomorrow

So in the past year my debt was all the way upto $11,000. I work 100% commission bases so pay can even be $0 sometimes…..was excited I paid it all off then something came up with a friend in need so back in debt but just $330…… I find out later today if I get a $400 commission or not. Wish me luck!