scared to leave the house
EDIT: not trying to go on a big moan or anything here - i just cant decide if my surprisingly huge fear is valid or if I can push myself through temptation with tools and a disciplined plan.
For context, I have no agoraphobia or, normally, any fear of leaving the house - this is solely in relation to being afraid of getting drunk.
I've moved in with family temporarily and keep getting drunk everytime i leave the house; I've been mostly able to hide it by staying in hotels etc as i still have a bit of (dwindling) cash. The last time, about a week ago, it was only 2 days but it was 2 days of solidly being drunk that ended because i lost my purse and phone so had no more access to money -otherwise ive been sober and am not physically addicted. I've got to go do admin tomorrow (pharmacy for an autoimmune condition ive not had the pills for for about a week and my body is seriously starting to feel unwell - so i really cant put it off for another day), dentist for a broken tooth and phone fixing place for an unuseably broken phone. I know logically I can get through the day without drinking but I'm sat here at half three in the morning SCARED AND TERRIFIED that I'm going to drink and don't know what to do