u/Inside_Quality_9436

I don't know how it is used where you guys live but it feels almost like a slur and honestly really dated and I don't care if you self identify as a cutter or whatever, thats up to you, I'm talking about people who have never harmed themself in any way talking about other people who are supposed "cutters." I think it may be the inescapability of the word like labelling someone as their actions rather than someone who does something but idk. And don't even get me started on the term "secret cutter" like how is it 2026 and we're still saying dumb shit like this. It may just be a personal pet peeve or whatever but just no

Okay, so today, my friend was studying for ap psych while i was playing water sort on my phone. And this particular friend studies by explaining the content out loud which means that she was explaining it to me. and i was listening and nodding This is usually all fine and good, except it was for ap psych and so then she got to eating disorders and she started explaining and said, >!"okay, so the 2 types of eating disorders are anorexia and bulimia. Anorexia is the one where the person never eats anything. They do this because they want to be really skinny. Bulimia is the one where someone makes themselves throw up. They do this because they're already overweight and want to lose weight"!< I really don't think i need to explain all of the things wrong here, but wtf. I didn't even correct her because she has this thing where she doesn't even care if shes wrong, she'll just say that its basically the same thing and that it was right anyway, but i needed someone to know because i'm honestly in awe that some people know so little about eating disorders. i feel like i'm going crazy

I recently started eating more and have gained some weight and my joints hurt less and I haven't been passing out and all around have more energy. But then (okay so this part may be tmi) today when I went to go pee, once I started peeing, I passed out. And ever since then I keep on losing my vision when I stand up, and my joints started hurting again yesterday, and I thought I was better, but I'm starting to feel worse again even though I'm eating enough (and staying very well hydrated). Does anyone know why this is or how to fix it?

Nothing is comfortable and nothing fits how i need it to and aside from the normal obsession with sizes and the irrational fear of shopping for new clothes that constantly plagues my mind i hate the way my clothes look.

I get that our styles evolve as we change as people and its usually a slow shift where you replace items one by one, but you can't really do that when your eating disorder controls what you wear. I can't stand people seeing my body and so i usually where a knit sweater and some jeans, but over time i have began to resent that look, and wanted to shift my look towards something that i actually like, but it is not possible with my need to have my body covered in baggy clothes all day every day to conceal any part of my body that may reveal a hint of my shape underneath. I hate everything i own and want to throw it all away, but the clothes that i think are pretty i could never wear. So i am stuck just buying plain sweaters and jeans and hating the way I'm dressed and hating my body under my clothes. And existing is uncomfortable and the clothes i wear have become too scratchy for my easily irritated skin and I'm either constantly pulling my pants up or they inhibit my range of motion or they press into my stomach when i sit down for too long and leave a gap in the back.

I can't shop for new clothes because I'm scared of trying on things and them being too small. Even when i can shop for clothes, i can't buy anything i like because it shows a trace of how my body actually looks underneath. And i can't exist happily in the clothes i have now. All of this together, makes me hate the way i look more because i hate the way the clothes i wear look and i hate the way i look without the clothes. It's literally impossible to exist peacefully