u/Intelligent_Box2939

I’m 24M and over 3 years ago I was sexually assaulted by a coworker twice my age. For a while I thought I had started to move past this. Then I got into a relationship and I realized that it still affects me. It comes in waves but there are times I replay the act in my mind and all the sudden I’m frozen again and I can’t help but feel overwhelmed. I want to release my thoughts out but the only way I know how is by writing a song and releasing my anger that way. However, every time I try to write it I keep asking myself is this too much, does anyone really care, will there be legal action caused by this? I’ve thought about being subtle about it but at the same time I want to release my anger out about this situation. Has anyone felt this before in a similar way and how did you go about this? I’m also thinking about partnering with a non-profit in some way for this song and if anyone knows some good organizations in the US that helps victims of SA especially men because I feel its rarely ever talked about. Is this even a good idea? Sorry this post was kind of everywhere I just wanted to get some thoughts out and see if maybe I can do something positive with this anger.

I just got out of a toxic relationship where my partner made me cut out many of my closest friends. My partner would always get jealous if someone else talked to me in a friendly manner. Whenever we went to a restaurant I started hoping our server would be a man so that she would not get jealous if our server was being in anyway friendly towards me. It got so bad that she made me not tip servers even though I have been a server in the past and I always tip at least 20%. I feel free but is it bad that I feel guilty that I feel free? I am also trying to rebuild my friendships that I haven’t been able to keep because of this relationship. I want to apologize for getting them involved in all of this. She would start looking at my phone periodically to see if I was messaging another woman even if they were my coworkers and I was talking about work or my friends that I have known for many years before her. I just don’t know how to go about rebuilding these friendships anymore. I feel so alone now and have no one to talk to about anything anymore.