u/Intelligent_Neck_111

I look in the mirror I’m ok I find myself pretty even then I go on my camera let’s just say I want to die. People take photos of me I want to die. I hate my nose it makes my face look disgusting I hate my shape of my face I hate to much like jawline or whatever it is idek I hate it my smile In photos I hate it everything I hate. Sometimes when I home I go in the camera I’m ok but no it’s never when I want to look ok. I want a nose job so bad I just feel like I look so different from everyone but pretty sometimes idek. It’s not like I’ve ever been bullied for being ugly people have had crushes on me. Is it because of my boobs and stuff or bc I’m maybe pretty? Mind you they were all mediocre men or below so maybe I’m just ugly and they think I’m in their league. ( not judging bc I feel ugly so wtv )

This is the first time since I was 12 years old Im actually excited for summer, appreciating and enjoying the sun, that I found an interest. I’m 18 I don’t really know what took me so long. In some ways I’m doing better. I can’t enjoy it too much because then something will come along and disappoint me eventually. Fall will still always be my favourite but I’m excited for what this new joy I feel will bring me.