u/Interesting-Win-6502

What have you done to help distract (or whatever word you want to use)?

I’ve been going to the gym just over a year now. He passed 6 months ago. In some ways the gym has helped me so much. Doing hard things brings those emotions to the surface. I let them out and then feel like I can go on another day or two.

Some days I hate it. I’ll be doing so good but then remember he isn’t waiting at home to hear all about how I kicked ass. This week I broke down crying to the class and my trainer saying, “he isn’t home for me to brag to.” He loved hearing about what I did, as he’d rub my legs. I miss that so much.

Just when you think you’re doing good and the indoctrination didn’t get to your kids as much.

Husband passed away almost 6 months ago. Our 12 year old told me she’s been getting headaches from stress. I joked, “what do we have to be so stressed about?” She is so fucking stressed because she’s trying to be good enough to make it to heaven to be with Dad.

We left the church during Covid, so she was young. I’m just so mad that somehow that thinking has still gotten to her. Of course I reassured her, I mentioned heaven to her since that what she seems to believe. I also mentioned we aren’t sure what’s out there and we’re all going to the same place. Even if we’ve done some “bad.”