It was your hands
I’ve never met you and we only knew each other online and yet I fell for you. I fell for who you were at heart and how genuine you are. Every image you shared I would incessantly look over and the video of you showing your hands did it.
While having sex with another guy I imagined it was your hands caressing my breasts and holding my hips as I rode on top. I imagined your voice as this other guy spoke.
This ruined me. I needed to back away from you. It wasn’t healthy.
The limerance of you broke me and I knew what I imagined was only a pipe dream. So that’s why I pulled away and had you kicked. I shouldnt have done any of this and it ruined everything between us. And to make it worse is that im telling this to strangers and not to you. I’m sorry Paul.