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TW: pregnancy

Here we go again friends. Just had my very very light test at 11 DPO (wondfo early test strips). So faint that I will take a FRER tomorrow to make sure but…it’s very daunting and anxiety inducing to be here again.

It’s been 5 cycles since my last loss, I keep telling myself to not get attached but also trying to not be too negative. It’s hard. This is my third pregnancy, no LC

I guess I’m just venting, but if anyone has success stories of having an LC after two chemicals let me know, could use some positivity.

Being in this boat is really hard, just waiting for the other shoe to drop. How nice it would be that we all had a chance to live through a pregnancy from naivety and color lenses instead of fear and anxiety💔

Hello my friends… I wonder if anyone has an experience to share with this.

My SO’s sperm analysis came back and motility and count are within normal limits. Soeem morphology is low though… how much does sperm morphology really affect pregnancy loss? I’ve had two chemicals so wondering if this could be a contributing factor. Everything else so far (RPL blood work, HSG, hormones) has been normal. Still waiting for karyotype results for both…

Thank you!$

My boss and his wife are expecting, she is roughly far along the same amount of months I would be if my pregnancy had been successful.

They were away for a month and I went away for a few days so it’s my first couple days back in the office. Today they’re so excited because they’re finding the gender.

I’m so happy for them because babies are a blessing and I truly am glad they’re having a good pregnancy (she had a chemical on her first try and then she got blessed with this one)

However, as much as I am trying to smile and give them all my love and congratulations, it’s extreme hard as my heart breaks for myself.

It’s very hard being around this, especially at work, since I cannot escape or distance myself (she works at my office too).

It’s so heartbreaking, they are finding out the gender and I am doing bloodwork, HAG and fertility workups to see why I’m loosing mine.

Such a cruel joke :(

Exactly what the title means. Yet another friend is pregnant and has announced on Instagram…it’s so had to watch and fake it “congratulations” and even though I am genuinely hoping they have an easy and safe pregnancy and delivery, I have to say congratulations and mute them.

I’ve had to do that with so many friends recently, it seems like everyone is getting pregnant right now and it sucks. Every time I feel like I’m getting better and seeing the light at the end, another friends does a stupid pregnancy announcement and it takes me back to my first lost and is a painful reminder of what I’ve gone through.

It just seems so unfair, and it brings out an ugly side of my that I don’t even recognise. I know it’s stemming from pain and hurt and I’m not actually a horrible person but man it hurts…

So I guess I just want to see if it ever DOES get better or am I going to be back to square one and triggered every time a new friend announces?

I hate this being my journey…and it makes me so absolutely sad.

Long story short, I don’t have half my thyroid and have been on levothyroxine for 14 years. I’ve been taking 75mg levothyroxine for a while and that has been working fine up until now.

I had a TSH test in March where my levels were 1.75 ( good level for fertility), after pushing on my doctor I just redid the test and just 3 months later, my TSH has jumped to 3.81

I am baffled, I have tested negative for hashimotos many years ago. How can my TSH jump that much??

I’m not sure if anyone has any insight or experience share or just encouragement cause really I’m so tired of feeling like my body wants to sabotage my at every corner, despite what I do

Thank you all

If you’re on progesterone, are you finding it more difficult to get pregnant with that supplementation?

After my second CP, doctor put me on 100mg of progesterone which I take around 3 DPO.

I’m only cycle 3 after my last CP and so far nothing. I’ve always conceived within 3 cycles so I’m wondering how long it took you to conceive while on progesterone, either successful or not successful.. I just want to taper my expectations and stop freaking out this will make me not able to get pregnant anymore.

Ty all ❤️

Just want to start this by saying please, I don’t need you to bash GLP-1s, their use or if you think this is not what I should be doing. Just looking for any personal experiences on this, ty.

I have been on Zepbound for a year and a half . I have hypothyroidism and insulin resistance so weight has been a constant battle for me
And this injection has been a godsend for me.

I lost a bunch of weight to help me prepare for this journey and before trying I asked my OBGYN about it and he said to stop as soon as I conceived but I could keep taking it if I wanted.

I didn’t anticipate loosing my first pregnancy obviously so I’ve been in this limbo ever since. I had been taking it until I got my second pregnancy, stopped immediately after the first positive but that ended in a loss too (both chemicals).

My doctor now said he would probably not use if I could as it couldn’t hurt but I gain weight extremely fast and I’m so worried about it having the opposite effect on my fertility. I’m now taking in during my period week all the way up to ovulation and stopping until pregnancy has been fully negative (so not during ovulation or TWW)

I’m struggling a lot, not only with self image but also because progesterone makes me incredibly hungry and I’ve definitely gained some weight. I just wish I didn’t have to worry about this on top of worrying about my losses…so wondered if anyone has been a similar journey.

Please don’t judge, this has been extremely hard for me and I’m just looking for some anecdote or just a virtual hug tbh, I don’t even know. Ty 💕

Just in case anyone wonders about this. I think progesterone is really wrecking with my mood. I was ready for the sleepiness and the hunger but boy does it make me an absolute menace right now. Everyone’s breathing annoys me and I just hate everyone around me. My patience is so thing and I’m constantly checking myself to sto being such a b…I feel bad for my parents who are visiting right now and my husband. But like I just have a rage inside and an annoyance that runs deep.

Was no expecting this at all.. I think it add insult to the injury knowing that this may all be for nothing and I may or may not be pregnant or may or may not have a safe growing baby…

Sorry, just. A little rant over.

So…I’m confuzzled and wondering if anyone has experienced this. I typically ovulate day 15-18 of my cycle. This time I “think” I’m ovulating earlier around day 13-14. I started spotting very very light pink mixed with EWCM. A bit stronger after inter course.

Anyone experienced this? I’m down the rabbit hole of “this is normal” and also “Ohmygod you have fibroids”… I have NEVER spotted before I don’t think, especially not since TTC or around my last ovulation with my pregnancy losses.

Does anyone have any insight to share??

Want to preface this by I can’t really get another therapist right now, so I’m just gonna have to get over this.

So I’m in therapy once every 2 weeks, I have been with this therapist for a while. She’s been seeing me for a long time and has also seen other members of my family do very aware of my family dynamics. I tend to have a very “negative” or catastrophic outlook in general, according to them, although I think it’s more being a realist than anything else…but Obviously, I have been having an incredibly hard time with my two last chemical pregnancies, which I refer to them as miscarriages.

Today, I had to almost like defend my position to her and why this is affecting me so much to the point of making me lowkey depressed again.

She said she didn’t know much about how these losses work but that she asked her OBGYN friend about it and she basically said that these are not like true miscarriages and more like implantation failures. And I’m like?? What.

So she was framing it in a way that I should maybe think about this as just not that important or like a big bad thing that happened so I don’t get depressed and I’m just like…well, they felt very much ram to me and like I lost two babies not just implantation failures. I had to explain to her that there is no scenario in my mind where I’m not going to be anxious and scared for my next pregnancy, which she just said was going to make things worse for me with cortisol and what not…

I’m at a loss of words tbh, I’m still dumbfounded she would say that even if she’s trying to help like..those are my babies? Very much wanted and prayed for pregnancies they ended in awful pain and bleeding.

maybe chemicals are not seen as real miscarriages but why tf would you say that to someone who is depressed about it?? Idk, I’m just shocked so I feel like if anyone can get outraged by this besides myself, it would be someone here…

Im at a work event, we are a very tight knit group, and as I arrived, my boss and his wife dropped the bomb that she is 12 weeks pregnant. I would be 12 weeks if my second pregnancy hadn’t ended up in a loss.

I am so tired of feeling like this. I feel bad that
I can’t be happy for them , but I just absolutely want to leave. I hate it. That should be me and now in just here in the bathroom of the restaurant crying.

I hate this.

For context, I am based in Charlotte NC

Anyone can share how long the waitlists are for these specialists are? Trying to extract that info from my OBGYN practice is hard. My doctor isn’t recommending one yet but said I can get the referral if I want but he would want me to wait to see if third pregnancy is successful (two previous chemicals 4 months apart)

I just would hate for me to go through a third loss and then have to wait months to see someone about it.. I’m conflicted.

Thank you guys 💕

Did anyone try the Mucinex hack to get pregnant and then had a chemical or early loss?

I tried Mucinex after a few months of trying and I got pregnant which ended in a chemical. I did the same for pregnancy #2 which also ended in a chemical.

I know it’s probably just coincidence but wondering if anyone has had this happen to them?

It’s so hard not being able to know what could’ve cause this, the “it was bad luck” phrase is sometimes very hard to take at face value…

Ty friends

Anyone who is taking progesterone right now as part of their protocol… I have a question

I’m taking 100mg vaginally after ovulation to help with a future pregnancy. My question is… when do I stop it? I’m reading it says progesterone can delay your period so if that’s the case, and your period doesn’t come, how would you know you’re not pregnant?

I have 12 day luteal phase…but I know some people don’t even test positive well pas this… I typically have tested positive on 11 DPO but I know every pregnancy is different.

So, should I just stop progesterone the day my period is “supposed” to start if I have a negative test (although I’m not super duper regular)… or is this dose okay and would not suppress a period if I’m not pregnant?

So many questions and my provider didn’t explain any of this to me…ty all

This probably will sound incredibly stupid but if anyone can understand this silliness, it’s probably someone here.

We’ve been trying for close to a year and have had two losses so far. In the midst of this, I, who hates the outdoors and being outside with bugs, finally decided to be brave and start a garden.

I need something to pour my maternal feelings on and since no baby yet or healthy pregnancy, I decided growing food could be a good thing

I was SO excited. We finally got all the parts needed to start my raised bed today, my husband was feeling sick so it was just me. I was out there, mixing bags of soil and manure in the sun. Feeling good for the first time in such a long time.

Side note, there are so many bees and wasps in my yard, I always try to avoid being out there. I am also deathly scared of them and mildly allergic to bees so I always tried to stay out.

Of course with my stupid 💩luck, halfway through mixing soil I got randomly stung in the back by a yellow jacket. It came out of nowhere.

I started crying hysterically because it hurt and I was scared and couldn’t see my freaking back obviously and it was so sudden. My husband was trying to help me but he was so confused why I was crying so hard.

How do I explain that this is quite literally the only baby I have , this garden is like my lifeline right now and I am so incredibly sad. Now I’m scared to go back out, I am so so sad and can’t stop crying. Like I just want one thing to go right….this may sound so stupid but I genuinely feel gutted, like my emotions are barely hanging on and I don’t know what to do when I feel like it’s just crumbling around me. It’s literally a garden and a wasp sting!! No big deal but it feels like the end of the world for me.

Maybe I’m crazy and nobody can relate lol…but anyways, if you read all this, sorry 🥲 please tell me your stories if you’ve ever had a mild breakdown over something dumb like me to feel less alone 🥲🥲🥲

I’ve had two chemical pregnancies “back to back” about four months apart, my OBGYN really thinks is “bad luck” and told me to wait for a third pregnancy before going down the specialist path due to invasiveness and cost.

He did prescribe me 100mg of progesterone orally until I conceive (after ovulation) but now I’m seeing that oral progesterone may not be as effective and that you can use the exact same capsules vaginally instead?

Can you actually do that? like do I take my oral capsule and just shove it up there???

Thank you all - I’m so tired of all these guesswork and worry that I’m not doing something right.

I am 31, have had 2 CPs 4 months apart. I don’t have PCOS but I do have insulin resistance, for which I have been taking zepbound about a year for and has helped my glucose a lot.

I saw the wonders shared about inositol and started taken it a week ago but now im worried that since i dont have PCOS it could mess up my cycle particularly ovulation.

I have never missed a period and im ovulating every month since ive been tracking almost a year ago.

Any insight on anyone taking inositol for non PCOS? Thank you💕

I’ve experience 2 chemicals. We started trying when I was 30, now 32 turning 32 in a few months.

This is going to be my second cycle trying after my last CP and I am terrified. I am so scared to not pregnant but even more scared of having another miscarriage.

I truly don’t know what I will do… my heat already breaks in a million pieces every day and I am so scared that this will affect my mental health more and potentially my marriage.

Not much else to say, wondering if anyone feels the same. As much as I want a baby, I’m scared of this becoming my whole life as I’m already loosing joy in a lot of things…thank you.

Hello friends, first I hope that you are having an easy day today, I know this holiday hits hard for some of us…

I’m tired of wallowing in self pity today so want to be more proactive in adding things into my regime to try and maximise my changes…

I’ve had two CP “back to back” but with 4months in between. I’m already taking some stuff so want to see what other people are taking to help their chances!

I’m currently taking prenatal vitamin gummy, vit D 10,000 (have slight vit d deficiency), gentle iron, tumeric, and supplementing progesterone after ovulation.

In looking at Coq10 but I’m unsure which one or how much to take… husband will take it too.

Any other things? Doctor didn’t seem like I needed baby aspirin but unsure if I should just take it. No RPL testing has been done yet, doctor is hopeful this was just shit luck due to my age (31)

Thank you all 💕