I just bought some fried chicken meant to go with sriracha sauce, I cooked it like I was instructed on the box, but I am paranoid about meat, especially chicken. I'm not sure if it's done or if I should pop it back into the oven
Just like the title says, I have been studying Japanese In university since 2020, it's now been 6 years and I have yet to graduate. I don't really know what I'm doing at this point, or if I'm just being obtuse for still trying.
I love the language, which is why i'm learning it, but the actual learning part feels like torture, I'm also doing Chinese as a second obligatory language and i'm having a way easier time, probably because it being the second language has a lower requirement to pass the exam.
I was diagnosed with ADHD which makes studying feel like i'm being tortured even on medication, although it does help just a tiny bit.
I have an important exam coming up in 4 days and I have to physically force myself to study even just a little bit. The thing is, as much as I love the language I'm not sure if I want to use it to work with, I basically want to graduate to prove to myself that I can.
It doesn't help my staggeringly low self-esteem that makes me think I'm too dumb and Incompetent for any career I could think about pursuing, so I haven't even thought too deeply about what I would do after I graduated because I think I would never be able to pursue a career. I'm literally in a prison of my own making, because on one hand I know I could just drop out, but at this point it feels like a waste (sunk cost fallacy) but really, I want to graduate.
My teacher who's helped me soo much said she saw my improvement, and I know I am now more prepared for this exam as I have ever been, but it's still not enough for the exam. I'm planning on pushing through. I also work a part-time job so I'm not relying on my parents, even though I still live with them but they have always been clear that they want to support me, I am helping them as much as I can. Even if I don't pass the exam I don't really want to give it up, but am I being obtuse? I know graduation is not the end all be all, and many people graduate late, I have always been slow so I kinda expected to take longer than others, but I wonder if I'm just being dumb at this point.
English is not my first language, so I apologise if my rambling doesn't make sense or has errors in it.