[Update] I broke up with my boyfriend after questioning my sexuality
I made a post a few days ago explaining my sexuality crisis while I had a boyfriend and the responses I got were very helpful. I had a talk with him that since then. He was.... somewhat supporting. He's always been aware that I like girls but it was never brought up. The vibe was, I support you but I don't agree with it, type of thing.
Anywho, the main reason im making an update is because yesterday, my best friend of 9 years expressed her feelings for me.
I went to her place last night, explaining how I felt and how it went. She was super supportive and comforted me through it. To make me feel better about all of it, we got high, which is normal for us to do together, but I noticed she was awfully touchy the whole time. One thing led to another and she was kissing me while mumbling her feelings for me against my lips. I honestly was so out of it I don't think I really registered what she was saying in the moment.
Even though I was high out of my mind, I remember clearly how it felt when she started to pull of my clothes and then her own. I was so fucking wet and confused, because why is my best friend of nine years just now expressing her feelings?
Of course we had sex that night and it was really, really good. My ex boyfriend was never super good with his tongue or fingers, but she really spoiled me.
But I am so freaking out! This was literally last night. Like, where the hell do I go now? I told her I wanted time to myself to think, but honestly I am so lost.