Session 19/36: Depression easing, but anxiety is up and my motivation/willpower is completely gone. Normal?
Good morning everyone!
I'm 28M and have been dealing with depression and anxiety for more than half my life. I am currently on session 19 of 36.
Due to past experiences, I have some control issues. Because of that, I'm trying hard to remain hopeful throughout this treatment, but I'm finding it difficult to just let go and trust the process.
Lately, I've noticed some relief from the depression, but it's almost like it has made my anxiety and lack of willpower worse. My theory is that the new neural pathways are opening my mind up and allowing me to think more, which is a lot to process.
The main downside I'm seeing right now is a severe lack of motivation to do my job. It feels like I have zero willpower to complete tasks, and to be honest, it's really scaring me. Typically, I love my job, though I do have ADHD and can experience burnout pretty easily.
I'm trying to stay hopeful, but I would love to get some insight from people who have been through this:
1.Has anyone else experienced a drop in motivation or an spike in anxiety around the halfway mark? Does it get better toward the end of treatment?
2.For those with ADHD, did TMS temporarily alter how you managed your symptoms or focus? Does that pass and or is it just part of the process?
3.Any tips on how to "let go" and trust the process when you have a natural tendency to want to control things?
Thanks in advance for any advice or tips on moving forward