Im 28f and not sure if I am pretty or not. It’s not like I was ever called ugly although I have had a few experiences people say less attractive people have. But I have also had experiences which attracting people have. So I just wanted to know some universal signs that you are attractive which would probably not happen to you if you aren’t attractive.
So I’m a mixed race black/white biracial and growing up my whole environment (including my family and friend’s families) were quite racist and they taught me that black people are bad and to never trust them, interact with them in any way as they will take advantage of you ect. It also didn’t help that most black people I have interacted with in my life have been like that.
I’m really trying to overcome my internalised racism because I know generalising a whole racial group is wrong but I’m not sure where to start. I’ve went to therapy but all the therapists I went to said it was ok and that it didn’t really need to be fixed. Whenever I’m close to a black person I get really anxious and my body starts going into fight or flight mode.
I’m not really sure on what to do. I don’t hate/dislike myself at all for being part black.