u/Irreversiblyagirl

Hey, transgender! are you unhappy with how testosterone mangled your face? try ffs! with ffs, youll be able to look up without a literal shelf of browbone blocking your vision! you will be able to smile without looking like Bruce Wayne! your lower face will cease to be big enough to land a plane on! try ffs!

side effects include swelling that is so severe you look like a skyrim orc​ that takes several weeks months to calm down, hair loss near your scalp incision sites, two black eyes that take two weeks to go away, ​the possibility of the sutures in your mouth opening and bleeding intermittently, not being able to eat anything that is harder than scrambled eggs for several weeks, numbness in your face that is so bad that you cant smile or raise your eyebrows for a week (and extreme sensitivity to the point of pain when your nerves wake up again) not being able to lift anything over 10 lbs without running the risk of the aforementioned suture-opening, having to wear an annoying face brace that will eventually become your best friend because it is the only way to hide the way your swollen face looks, everybody in your family telling you you made a mistake, and depression and occaisional regret for apparently ruining your face.

/UJ I know this will be worthwhile in the end but oh my fucking god. its been 3 weeks and I feel only marginally mentally better. ALSO DO NOT LET THE DOCTORS GIVE YOU DEXAMETHASONE. IT IS A STEROID AND IT MADE MY FACIAL HAIR GROW FASTER. I know i sound crazy but I swear its true.

dont get me wrong. I love shakes and ice cream and soup and yogurt. but for the love of everything good I want a gyro so badly. I had one the night before i got FFS and ever since I have had a hankering for a gyro. so please unless youre in the same boat as me have a gyro and maybe some baklava for dessert

i (21) have been with them (23NB​) for a year and a half. when we met i was really skinny and only 1.5 years on E, looked like a really sick twink. this was because i was undereating because of bad past relationships. despite that they saw me for who I was and loved me through it. their appreciation helped me to stop treating myself poorly, to get on mental health medications. I accidentally gained a lot of weight, which was a lifetime first (I'd never been on the heavier side before). but rather than scolding me or telling me to lose weight, they loved me just as much, even going so far as to encouraging me to enjoy food in the way that I had fallen in love with it. they've made me glow in a way I haven't before. my skin has color to it for the first time ever, I have curves that I've never had before, and my hair is thicker and healthier than ever. I'm on the chubby side now, but they love me to pieces and they never tell me to change for them. im actually beginning to love my body.

I just had FFS; since im on heavy painkillers and therefore horribly forgetful, they gave me a little sheet of questions I wanted to ask the doctor, since I couldn't remember them. since i cant eat hard foods they brought me a milkshake; and not only did they do that but they went to a special fancy milkshake place. and on the bottom of the note of questions they drew my favorite animal, a Richardson ground squirrel. I cried uncontrollably when I saw that.

As for them... Holy fuck they're beyond beautiful. inside and out. they are consistent, gentle with me, and willing to learn and change their behavior. they listen to my concerns about their health and their struggles with eating enough, they're honest and loyal. as for their appearance i cannot explain it without melting a little. they are graceful and just effortlessly charming in a silly endearing way. Its so hard to look them in the eye, but when i do i cant stop. I have begun to believe in god simply because I cant believe something so beautiful came about by accident.

it isnt always a walk in the park, but more of a hike in the forest-- exciting challenges that bring progressive reward for what i imagine will be a destination unlike anything ive ever experienced. I would happily die with them, or for them. they make me sing and draw and laugh at silly cartoons. I feel my age for the first time in ages. Saying I love them doesnt cut it.

NSFW stuff incoming. they make me feel ways I have never felt before. theyre going on E to accentuate their natural androgyny and its like a switch has flipped in my mmind. i couldn't find myself into femininitt before, but every little change they undergo makes me that much more desperately attracted to them. the morning of my surgery I was almost late for my intake because I could not stop kissing them, I almost passed out from how excited I was to be with them once again. saying that I love them is such an understatement.

TLDR: my partner has nursed me back to mental and physical health, cared for me through thick and thin, and been so loving and caring, and I cannot help but tell the world how in love i am. please help me calm down before I explode.

they removed my cleft chin in its entirety. once im healed I will be able to smile without worrying about how far my chin is projecting. They reduced my frontal sinuses so much that there is no more visor over my eyes in down lighting. they reduced my masseters and mandible, which i cant see yet but it already looks about the same width as it did before even with extreme swelling. this has changed my entire life. ​

im also getting supraorbital reduction, reductive genioplasty with cleft removal, and mandible asymmetry fix as well as maybe platysmaplasty.