u/Itchy_Ask_2345

Been on the App Store for 2 weeks and some change but my app finally hit 1000 dollars of revenue just wanted to share my win!

Every time I see myself in the mirror I just feel disgusted. I avoid pictures, I avoid going out sometimes, and I spend so much energy comparing myself to literally everyone around me. It’s exhausting.

The worst part is food is the only thing that makes me feel okay for a little while. When I’m eating, especially during a binge, everything goes quiet for a second. The self-hatred, the anxiety, the overthinking… it all shuts off. But then afterwards I feel even worse than before and hate myself for “having no control.”

It’s like I’m trapped in this cycle where I binge because I hate my body, and then I hate my body even more because I binge.

I’ve tried “starting over” so many times. Diets, fasting, deleting apps, promising myself tomorrow will be different. But somehow I always end up back here alone at night eating until I feel numb.

I honestly don’t even know how to separate comfort from food anymore. It feels like the only thing I genuinely look forward to sometimes.

Has anyone here actually gotten better from this mindset? Not just stopped binging for a few days, but genuinely stopped hating yourself so much? I really need advice because I’m tired of feeling like this all the time.