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To start, I know well that autogynephilia is full of shit but I just can't help but feel like there's a grain of truth to it.
Basically, when I was 11~12 I'd started masturbating, but not to nothing, but rather to the idea of being a girl. 0 romantic or sexual elements, just a variety of scenarios in which I would be, first forcefully, then willingly turned/dressed female. A good example is how in one my female classmates would take me, dress me up and arrange me such that I would be a girl and integrate me as one of their own, that was enough for me for years and years on end, way before I knew what sex or anything remotely similar was.
And yet I still feel like it fits the definition which horrifies me, I know being an autogynephile doesn't disqualify you from transitioning and being yourself, but the brain-worms are telling me it makes me not trans "enough"
Honestly at this point I don't know what to think, I have plenty of other evidence I think fits but this is my absolute earliest one and the thing that I remember most vividly and concretely, I think I would even dream about this stuff.