Is there no hope for me?
I'm not sure if this flair is suitable but anyway I can't seem to find any normal people (men) attractive like I even dated one online he was really good with me, a bit obsessed but was a good person but I feel like I don't feel for him as much as he feels for me and like the appearance just makes me go like flat blank like 0 attraction like I feel like I'm suddenly aro ace, I think I'm Bi, been into a girl before but yeah didn't confess cuz of the circumstances it didn't seem like i could but yeah anyway I'm Muslim so this sucks, my family and relatives are all pressuring me to get married, i do feel lonely and need someone in life but HOW TF AM I SUPPOSED TO MARRY SOMEONE I FEEL NOTHING TOWARDS I WON'T EVEN SPEND A SECOND WITH THEM NO NOPE? no hate, I just can't do it, in men, I only find femboys attractive and they're like rare asf T_T I can't even marry out of my religion and I don't like forcing someone to enter this either I don't like it, I've tried few dating apps and they're full of regular men and I am just idk how to describe this feeling, it's like if you're straight and then you're asked to marry your same gender, sucks, i tried, even talked to therapist and they said it'll get better by time but no I've been this way since a kid and I've tried to force myself and it doesn't work it only seems to keep getting worse AAAAAAAAGH, I didn't want marriage in the beginning and had big arguments with parents to not make me marry just like that, but now the loneliness just hit and nothing seems to work with it and yeah my type doesn't even exist specially not here in Sri Lanka also yes my parents aren't ready to let me marry outside the country another point is that I don't find just any femboy attractive i only find those who actually look like girls, maybe I'm really a lesbo but anyway idk what to do, is there no hope for me?