u/JD_the_Aqua_Doggo

I just had a post removed from the main Christianity subreddit presumably because I was talking about what one commenter called “religious psychosis” so I wanted to come here instead, but since this subreddit is a more concentrated group of Christians, I’ve decided to change my approach. My own mystical, inner experiences have happened, and I have had positive experiences with a spirit that appears to resemble Jesus Christ, but instead of rambling about them, perhaps it’s best to keep it all to myself even though I long for brotherhood.

So instead I will ask: how does one ask God to reveal itself?

I’ve tried reading the Bible many times. I’ve read a couple of books from both testaments, never tried the whole thing cover to cover, but the words are just words to me. Some of the Psalms are lovely, don’t get me wrong, and I can feel their power. But that’s not enough to allow my surrender.

And I want to surrender to Jesus Christ. But I’m holding myself back. So much fear. So much I have already lost.

How can I be still and know God, without my eyes, without my ears, without my thoughts?

I’d like to share my spiritual journey with someone who is a Christian mystic. Preferably I just want to make connections and friends, I want to learn about your personal journeys as well and I would like to see how I can have a better understanding of my own path and if it is indeed leading me to a mystical Christian practice. I want to learn from people directly, through hearing about your own experiences, about how to engage with Christianity from a mystical POV, particularly as someone myself who has been literally all over the place spiritually.

I also really need to heal from something that has really thrown me, in regards to connecting to Christians and learning from them, and I feel like the best way to heal from old wounds is to connect with others and learn how to love Christians.

My DMs are open.