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She had been struggling with urinary infections for the past two months, but last the vet checked, she was all clear. Last Tuesday, she went downhill very fast, and I took her to the ER. The vet did some tests and informed me that she was in complete renal failure. I had the choice to go through with a very expensive overnight treatment that might not work or say goodbye to put her out of her pain. I chose to say goodbye because I couldn’t stand seeing her in pain. I was sobbing the whole time.

For the past week, I have dealt with so much guilt over not catching this sooner. Were there warning signs I hadn’t noticed? Should I have brought her to the vet sooner to get checked out? Mira was everything to me and I vowed to always protect her. I feel like I failed her now. She was just so confused when we said goodbye because of the toxins in her system. Thinking about her last few minutes is unbearable. It feels like I’m broken and can never be the person I was when she was alive. I still have my other cat, who is five, but without Mira I feel incomplete 😢

Two nights ago, I noticed my cat, Mira, wasn’t acting like herself. I called to make a vet appointment for the next day, but they said if it got worse, I should bring her to the ER vet, which I ended up doing. Turns out she was in complete renal failure, but never showed signs of it until that day. The humane thing was to put her down. Two days later I’m still sobbing, no motivation, I even had to quit my job because they would not give me time off since I had only been there 2 months. Mira was my whole heart. She was the BEST cat, got me through so many hard times and family deaths. I could not function in a work setting even if I tried. I have no idea what to do. How do I move on? I still have my other cat, Fiona, a Siamese, and I love her so, so much and want to be there for her, too. It’s like I don’t want to leave her alone. I don’t know how she is processing it. They weren’t super close, but at least they had each other. I feel the need to adopt again, not now, but soon, just so she has another cat around when I’m gone. I don’t know what to do. I can’t function, can’t eat, just feel constant guilt. Mira was always so attuned to my emotions, and slept with her paw on my heart most nights. How do I get through this? I feel guilty for quitting my job, but the demand was insane, and I had no support from anyone there. No one even said they were sorry. And I work in mental health. There’s NO way I could face clients like this; it would be irresponsible and ethically wrong. I feel so useless right now, like I’m failing at everything. Advice appreciated.

Lost my Mira, 15, last Tuesday

I lost cat and had to quit my job