u/J_Ijelly

Piping magma pools in my brain,
Anger’s scarlet blaring like summer’s cicadas on a hot day,
That bright red calling for my name,
Blood begging to drip and gather all the same.

Thoughts dread me unwillingly,
Self restraint hides deliberately,
The call of that rouge,
It’s too hard to refuse.

Casing anger in an expanding box,
Too much too little,
Life is not enough,
That righteous feeling we were made to suffer.

Crimson coats me delicately,
The pain I seek a false pleasure,
I did not meet their measure,
Miscalculated and calculated still,
Cuts think they can fill my canvas’ quill.

Vermillion paints my skin,
A face spread wild with a wicked grin,
Darkness fills my eyes,
Cherry surrounds me in my final goodbyes.

Trees grow over many years,
Flowers and fruit blossom,
To show their roots,
Things I loved how they whisked away.

Death graced my life,
Grief filled my heart with shame,
I did not know if to smile,
I did not know if to cry.

I wanted time to stand still,
So I could cling to my memories,
Each day that passed,
I hoped they were not fading.

I tried to push it all away,
My mind was racing,
I searched for distant voices,
My heart was hurting.

The cruelty of this world was unknowing,
I couldn’t quite catch it,
I could feel it all slip past me,
That divot inside me started gaping more open.

I wanted to search for whoever,
The one who created us humans to be like this,
The one who made us to flourish and falter,
I wished for life to breathe eternal.

I wished for life to burst through the ground,
As it once was,
To be strong and stand tall,
As so I could hold on and not fall.

Yet it all seeped slowly into damp soil,
Soil soaking with subtle sadness,
As we put on a smile to live for that next day,
The past crawls up my spine.

Living without those I’ve known my whole life,
Life started to feel like a creeping lie,
Cruel coated green leaves,
They’ve lost their sheen.

Ereyesterday a distance of the past,
Overmorrow how I chase the future,
Yesterday’s time trickles through loose fingers,
Today washes down like crashing ocean to seaside rock walls,
Tomorrow was a plummet into deep waterfalls.

And yet time it never stood still,
It ran its usual clockwork,
Through me and you,
I wonder if you’d still say,
Let’s live for tomorrow not just today.

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If life is made for suffering,
And death is oh so free,
Then why do we desperately crave and chase life,
As death makes us softly weep.

In death can one care about coldness,
As pain seeps out back into life,
Suffering that brings joy,
Freedom with waterfall screams.

Life and death are somehow serene,
Both a mix of bloodthirsty cruel and merciful bles-sed dream,
But where do they both meet,
As death graces my eyes,
I could see life anew.

Death should be paradise away from life’s hellish nightmare and unruly doom,
For each sweetest day comes bitter taste,
In each crevice of your mouth,
You try to wash it away,
That sour taste returning when you least want those thoughts.

Each day I live I think I’ll keep on wondering,
If death is just darkness then what heavenly kingdom had me hoping?

Timely tether,
Need I remember,
The tick of a clock,
The winding of gears,
That trickle of sand,
It fed my fears.

The hourglass it shook,
Wildly like breeze,
Hurricane of time,
Passing through me,
Passing me by,
Passing me wry,
Throwing me violently with twinkle lullaby.

Each day is forgetting,
Each day is like another,
Each day I’m chasing time like a lost whining puppy,
Do you remember to which the clock hands read?

Will you follow me through untimely serene,
For goodness and for worst,
Time trickled down gaping mouths,
The more we tried to devour,
Just another ticking hour.

The seconds became minutes,
Quick hours followed my years,
Each one just seemed so surreal,
Do you see the many facets my mind faces,
Do you think we belong in these different places,
Is it worth that endless chase?

In hopes that time will run and run again.

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