I feel like talking to someone who shares the experience of struggling as me on a daily basis. Especially when our only options, or lack thereof, are borderline criminal cut throat abusive slave jobs for 16 hours a day for meager peanut wages with looney tunes working conditions.
When I say vermin I don't mean rats... I mean vermin that pretend to be humans... As harsh as it is to put it like that, it is the truth. It pains me to say this but not only is everyone else vermin, I'm also including my very own family..
Today I had the unfortunate forced interaction with another "vermin" as an attempt to secure funds for my financial and recreational needs..
And my grandma has this very funny idea of forcing me to go to church... I still haven't the strength to tell her I don't believe in God and a pastor has been scheduled for a "home visit". Man.. Can't even have privacy..
I am tired of raw dogging life without a condom every day. I just want to melt away with prescription drugs like xanax or ssri but I'm poor for a therapist let alone go to a drug store instead of being on flight or fight 24/7. I don't care if my dick don't work temporarily, I don't even use it anyway.
My mom has been urging me to get this job after a worker gruesomely died and now the position is vacant and told me to "grab" this opportunity and become her breadwinner. The jobs in my location make asian sweatshops look like heaven in terms of pay and safety standards, or lack thereof.
What would await me is a life of expendability, exploitation, extortion and, untimely death.
Not a suicide post or a doom post.
I don't think I will live to see AI being advanced to the point we can just customize our Virtual Mate to the "women" of our dreams, bros. Or if I did live long enough to witness it's going to be behind a pay wall. Claude AI and Gemini keeps trying to funnel money out of me which sucks. All it takes is to peel away the thin layer and you'll see how cruel and sick this world is.
Fat, broke, old, disgusting, jobless or dead end wagie men like us are still unpopular even in our own circles.
My mom dosent believe me my music and game dev self-career could possibly take off. She thinks I'm just delaying getting a j*b. She has this instinctual attitude to pull you down when she doesn't get what she wants (in this case, a j*b for me) she genuinely believes delivering food for a living is a respectable j*b more so than what I'm doing right now
Sometimes I wish I am lifted with support.
This toy has 52 keys in total but I'm only planning to use the piano keys and use a matrix. Problem is, every blog and article that involves toy pianos always have ribbon cables. Is it possible to do it in this particular toy?